memories

2011-10-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

okay, the only reason why i'm writing on this long forsaken blog is because i just feel like it even though i know that nobody is going to read it. But, oh well.. then it's where i can simply express myself and express the joys that i have had today.

Well, time really flies ehh? i just realized that apart from the past 3 posts, the others were 2 years ago, the year that i took my o levels. And now, i'm gearing up and preparing for my A levels. This 2 years have flown by so quickly. Even though i'm someone who often recollects old memories and play them in my mind, somehow i can never fully recollect all of my memories in SA. Too many good ones, though there are bad ones too, but the good ones are so much for than the bad. Either that or they all come together and make the whole picture so beautiful for me, and add so much vibrance and additional life to my entire SA experience. Now... where do i start?

okay, let's try to walk down memory lane, or as much as i am willing to type out.

First, i went to the cca open house and met my water polo seniors and that was when i decided that i was going to join water polo and try something new for the first time, something that i've never tried before, a cca that sounded so cool. So anyway, i came to SA. i wouldn't think that orientation was good because honestly, i didn't enjoy most of it maybe because i couldn;t really click with my og mates. In any case, then i settled into 10A06, met a bunch of real cool people- Ollie, Cheryl and Bethany. previously, the rest were a lot closer but the few of us ended up really comfortable with each other and good friends. And then water polo. ohh.. i really have no idea how to describe this entire polo experience. heartbreaks, disappointments, tears, sweat, pain, sprains.. so much and so much. i enjoyed it and dreaded it at one point in time. But overall, it did make me a lot stronger. It did make me who i am now, to treasure things around me much more than before and to trust Jesus' word- i am beloved even though the outside may not seem so. Eventually, what i really wished for at polo a divisions didn't actualize for me. Firstly was that we didn't make it to the finals. But for me, personally, i felt really upset because of what jiaolian did and the scoldings that at some point in time really tore my heart an emotions. But in the end, i wanted to play for the final game and that, i didn't get a chance to. But oh well.. it's over and i don't want to dwell on it. I did have happy times such as playing in the pool with the girls, bimbo-ing on the way to Malaysia etc. So much, so much. To completely deny all these moments just for the few bad ones would not be a fair statement at all and it doesn't do justice to my entire polo experience.

Okay, and then pw. drats.. we really should have gotten that A! But we got over it, past it, had fun. And my pw group went to London! Of course with the others as well. I really enjoyed London so much! it's such a beautiful place. Initially i felt really apprehensive about going to London with Miss K. I mean it's miss k, you know. Got scolded, but it was so good. walked at night with Ollie and saw the first glimpse of snow that fell on London that winter. Walked around till my feet were frozen, played with snow, shivered like icicles, watched plays, become Shakespeare, Jacob La Rose's poetry workshop, got locked outside the travelodge, walked around beautiful Cambridge town and by qarah, ran into Cheryl! So much to say! it was really one an eye-opening trip for me that helped me to break out of the 'me, i, myself' mentality where only i-matter. God is really so big and somehow i just know that as i commit this plan of wanting to study in the UK someday into His hands, i just know that he,ll bring it to pass. I just know it :) But anyway, i got to know miss k so much better and she's a really nice person i must admit. i'm really liking her now and i feel like she's a grandma to me. hahah, in some sense, my mama is still the best!

God has brought such good friends into my life i can't even begin to mention all of them. Even as i'm typing this, the school hymn and closing hymn is ringing in my head and i'm relishing it so much. These 2 years have been so enriching and i really thank God for bringing me to SA. He knows how much i would love it there and he didn't want me to miss out so he brought me here. I don't remember ever crying so much in a school because of results before, but at the same time, i don't remember ever laughing so much and so hard in my life before, until my stomach muscles were aching so bad. I just have to say, thank You, Lord. I really enjoyed these 2 years so much and i know that it was You behind the scenes planning it all for me. Now, it's the last lap: A levels. 26 more days to the A levels. Lord, walk me through like you always did, give me restful increase, give me the sharpness of mind that Daniel had, give me the courage and wisdom. Lord, i rely on You. As you have given me nothing less than the best, i believe that this time will be no exception. You love me, You want to bless me.

I can never express my thanks and all that i feel for SA these 2 years because it has been so condensed and fast-paced. At the graduation ceremony today, i watched the teacher's videos for us and i felt like "hey, i never had teachers like this before. I really love them." The teachers went out of their convenience and prepared the video for us and they went up on stage and sang for us too. The cohort also prepared a 30 sec video per class to thank the teachers too and to weave pieces of beautiful memories together one last time. As i watched it i felt that it's really amazing and divine that all of us from varying backgrounds and cultures can merge as one student body, be in the same cohort and all have our fair share of joy and laughter. Definitely not by some chance but God behind these beautiful happenings. I cried when the teachers were singing on stage because i never had teachers that was this passionate before. There are definitely these few teachers that i will always remember because they were not just teachers but educators in their own rights and taught me so many valuable character lessons. Mr Derrick Tan, Miss Noelle Soh, Miss K and Mr Derrick Ong. Of course the others were played a role in shaping me as well but these few are the ones that made the most profound impact in these 2 years.

Jesus, thank You :-)

one family unbroken, we join with one acclaim,

one heart, one voice uplifting, to glorify thy name

Lord dismiss us with thy blessings,...

may our seed time fast be yielding, year by year a richer store,

2010-05-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

FATIGUE..TIREDNESS
I'm doing my gp essay right now and i feel the fatigue that has been accumulated for some time. it's not the studying only, the cca, the expectations that i have laid for myself.. the frustration that i'm not on the task :(
it's tiring to play mind games, to be insecure. Jesus, i need to feel you afresh, i need to feel that palpable and tangible presence once more. i seriously cannot wait for camp. i know you are right here with me but why am i so unconscious of it?
but jesus, in my weakness, you are my strength! you have something amazing in stored for me, i know that. i know you hold my future. thankyou that a bruised reed you will not cast aside. thankyou that when i'm not fruitful, you lift me up even though i don't feel like i'm riding on the clouds, but i believe that you are carrying me when i'm most unaware. thankyou that you give me strength, extra grace and favor that only you can give :)
Jesus Jesus, amen :)

2010-05-14T23:47:00.002+08:00

JESUS I NEED YOU SO MUCH MORE NOW..
insecurities weren't meant to be part of my life! favor and blessings are!
psalm 23
' favor and love will HUNT ME DOWN ALL the days of my life. and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.'
amen :)
bless me beyond my circumstances, more than i can even think or imagine. i want to fear and tremble at your goodness in my life. amen

2010-02-16T15:31:00.004+08:00

i guess im just writing here because i have nothing better to do now. heh
but anw, i havent blogged since like forever? there's so much to say i definitely wont write everything here. israel was awesome, really. look at the pictures on facebook, they paint a thousand words!
i did not get the results i wanted, but praise God i didn't because now i enjoy sa so much. everything tht has happened has taught me to trust him so much more and how little and inadequate i can actually be, how helpless i actually am. i can't hve everything my way, i can't expect everything to fall in place the way i plan it but i know one thing's for sure, that HE can't fail me. as long as HE is with me, come what may, i have a bigger God behind me. whatever cca i join and subjects i take will be good because God says it is! as i got out of bed this morning i was asking myself this: if i believe only because i can rationalise something or i can see it and understanding how it can happen OR i believe because God SAYS SO. so many times i delude myself thinking that i can actually do it but i was so ashamed this morning because i know how ive been thinking. so now, repentence=changing my mind towards grace. amen :)
ps lian said that it doesnt matter what yr this is, whether the tiger or the chicken or whatever. the lion of Judah will have the final say in my life! amen to that. recently church has been so good,not that it never was but it feels all so different, a new level, a new intensity. the bible studies w dajie and coach, the feeding at main service, the feeding i get at arrow! it's overwhelming! we are destined to reign and we cant help it. we couldnt choose our life but jesus chose it, he chose the life that reigns, he chose the one that conquers and that is ours.

i am going to watch titanic now! haha like what the heck right.. but ehh my mum had a revelation about titanic and noah's ark. School tmr!

2009-12-16T19:53:00.003+08:00

hiii! im back finally! i have no idea why im blogging again since i've already decided that journalling would be a better choice. you can write just so freely about everything, unafraid that anyone would look at it and blow. isnt that what blogging is supposed to be about? too bad it's a public domain and it simply isnt wise to thrash everything out here. there's so much to talk about since the last i blogged but i figured that if i were to blog about everything, i'd not stop. hahaha
maybe just a few significant events? haha
well, o's is definitely something i would remember. i remember crying after amath and history paper 2 and i rmb mummy talking to me. i rmbed holding on to jesus so tightly and hanging on to his promises. i rmb jeffrey telling me to photocopy an extra copy of the entry proof because we were going to tear it together, as a class! whoo. too bad i overslept :S
i rmb prom. i saw God's goodness and lovingkindness all in one night. i was supposed to meet malvina, shu qing and lihuan but i was late. and i rmb that long afternoon when i was waiting for everyone to do their make-up, i was just staring at them because i really did not want to spend money on make-up. $25 just for a few hours? nahh, dont think so. hahaha. but that lady was soooo nice. she offered to do my eye for me, for FREE! whoo, favor of God la! i had so much fun talking to them, omg and we were like parade-ing at braddell. wtheck right?, but it seemed like a fairy tale. hahhaha. it was a good night for me, simply because i saw God work so evidently for me. i rmb telling jesus a week before prom that i wanted the levi's voucher and i got it, in a luck draw. could it be coincidence? i think not! it's just supernaturally natural :)

and then it was the 'valley' period that i experienced. it wasnt nice at all. level outing was awesome really. dcns tammie prayed for me and it was just so... what other words to describe but awesome? hahah. yeah it was. i had such a good time talking to mel and coach. i really thank God for them :)

malaysia. personally, i feel that it's not the best of all places to be in but it has reminded me of all the fun memories and this one and i enjoyed myself, i guess it's the company that matters? imagine yourself to be lying on the beach with the beautiful sunset or imagine yourself out on a chilly, winter evening. nice setting and ambience, everything; but all alone. kinda suck-y right? haha. anw, im saying all these only to emphasize how much i enjoyed the companionship. Genting was fun, all the late nights with the pps, the cool breeze and wet hair and shower caps and everything. I SURVIVED SPACESHOT!! whoo, achievement! :D amateur bowlers-turned-pros. haha, it'll always be in my mind. KL was ordinary but i especially love the grocery shopping and swimming pool. so much to say ! and the DIY dinner on sunday night. and the mass games, omg i really thank God for the memories because now they are mine to keep.

EJ5! it's the best camp so far. i received so much and i felt a burden lifted, there's so much to talk about so i shall not attempt to put them into words. maybe i would la, in my journal. hahah. sorry blog! ;p

i cant seem to rmb anything else for now, i feel excited for israel again! :)
yeah, i declare healing over myself. this flu is irritating! amen

2009-09-26T11:23:00.003+08:00

praise God i got a1 for math! omg, i;ve never gotten a1 ever for math. only term 1 in sec 1. even at streaming, it was an a2. it was so good!
haha i was so happy yesterday, not only happy but elated. i got a2 for ss but i didnt too well for english. like i was so sad coz of my english results. i mean, yes the paper was difficult but that's no excuse to not do well right?
and i really expected alot higher. and my friends knew i was kinda upset about it.
but this song just popped up in my mind. esp the part 'i'll not be dismayed nor will i be afraid'.
i guess it's just jesus telling me to keep resting in him and trust him the God kinda results, the solid good results at THE exam. and ya la, i felt so assured after that. and i rmbed coach pat saying 'do you want your paper to be good or do you want it to be anointed?'
of course anointed la. good can only bring you this far, but an anointed paper is not only going to bring you that distance. it'll bring you further. it was really so assuring :)

though i walk through water and i walk through fire
i'll not be dismayed nor will i be afraid
you will deliver
you will provide
your arm is mighty to save

though i walk through moments of weakness and pain
your faithfulness rises as sure as the sun
you are my shepherd
you know me by name
you carry me in your arms

im not my own
i am bought with a price
hidden in you i know victory is mine
i will give thanks jesus
i'll guard my heart
as you fight my battles speak peace to the storm

hallelujah

2009-09-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

hey, this is a really short revelation.
youknow like i just felt the holy spirit telling me to not let anyone define who and how good jesus is.
people can be testimonies but they never define the goodness of God. you(i) define his goodness.
'who do you say i am?'
'you are the Christ, the son of the living God'
beautifull:)

im excited about israel, really

2009-09-13T13:26:00.002+08:00

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell

The guilty pair, bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fil
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade
To write the love of God aboveWould drain the ocean dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whol
Though stretched from sky to sky

Hallelujah [3x]O love of God,
how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints' and angels'

i really received so much today. like really :)
HE just knew where i was and he just brought me out again. i've been thinking about things, about my next step.
what should i do next year etc. and if it comes, how am i supposed to respond. my mind nearly blew up and this morning was so refreshing. and pastor dan was leading worship today and he said 'we dont know what's gonna happen tmr, but we know who holds tmr'. truthfully, im afraid of what's gonna happen after i graduate. the amazing friends i have now might not be with me for the rest of my life. and others too. but what pastor dan said was so cool! i mean dont let the world define cool for us, THIS is cool. having full assurance that jesus holds my tmr, holds my future and everything else. and he makes everything fall nicely into place in the correct season. my friends might not walk beside me all my life, but i know someone will :)
plus level session yesterday was so awesome. the arrow leaders came down and i asked for my double portion. aggressive rest is something the leaders told me, of course there are others but those are just for me to enjoy. HAHA
it's not only rest ehh, but aggressive!
how timely esp when amath is tmr.
and coach lily's birthday card turned out beautiful. praise God! i was praying in tongues while making it la. i really could not have done it on my own, the highest i ever got for art was b3! how pathetic..sigh. but it does not matter anymore!
all i can say is im blessed where i am, im feeding and im growing

2009-09-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

beautiful ehh? haha i photoshopped it. it's really gorgeous! :)

2009-09-07T11:07:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging in a long time. but i just had that sudden urge to come back after doing amath.
this week really has been a good one, i mean even with all the exams im still in rest. so it's a good thing, really. last saturday at connect's p&w, there was this song that i particularly liked. 'first love' but the only part i remember is 'because you first loved me, jesus you will always be, you will always be, my first love'. someone told me this before.
infactuation : a fleshly desire
like : is like a crush
love : choice.
and the amazing thing is, jesus loved me. he chose to. i mean it's just so awesome isn't it. even in all my bad-ness and ugliness, he still chose to. it's really cool.
and sermon yesterday was really anointed. pastor josh said that God is so big and he holds the whole universe in the palm of his hands. and when we look at it this way, we are so small, so minute. we are not even the size of an ant, not even an atom. but he chose to leave his throne and come down to just save me, love me and bless me.
that's the only reason why im so deeply in love with him, the one who died for me!
i was just listening to 'fall afresh on me' after doing all the amath (it's not really my forte so yeah..) and there's this sentence 'you set your heart on me, you set me in your righteousness' he set his heart on me (choice) so c'mon, how not to love him? :)
this is the best part, the one thing daily devo says 'Boaz favored Ruth from the moment he laid eyes on her' haha, so much relevance.
i know im on the right track. :D
and in isaiah it says, that his word will not return to him void but will accomplish what it has set out to achieve. and it says to expand our tents, lenghten our chords and strengthen our stakes (prepare to receive so much more) and lastly, to be established in righteousness and fear and oppression will be far from me.
oh man, i just love it :)
cooooooollllllll!

2009-08-04T20:16:00.002+08:00

hold me jesus
coz im shaking like a leaf
you have been king of my glory
wont you be my prince of peace

i just told miss tang and miss chung that i shouldnt have been at remedial and i'll surely do well for a math at o's, back me up jesus coz i'm a lil scared..

2009-07-27T18:53:00.003+08:00

my grandfather is by far the 'hip-pest' granddad ive seen. not his dressing but he's actually using operating my computer. the hands-on approach. aha not bad, and he managed to look for a hotel on the net when he went to beijing. whoO!
amazing huh?

HILLSONG WAS AMAZINGLY AWESOME!!
it was really really good and im in love with this song, freedom is here.
i think jed? (im not sure if that's his name) is really good-looking. haha it's the favor of God la. he looks like the lead actor from first daughter.
i really cant describe how awesome it was, those who went would know. it's beyond words! :):) and judah smith is hilarious! but one thing i really like about him is, he really loves his wife. all his prayers will end with 'and i thank you for my gorgeous wife and my beautiful children'. and he always introduces his wife as either the most gorgeous or hottest, and he's so so cute! hahah
if i have to stay in australia, i would go to hillsong and if i have to stay in usa, i would go to citychurch! (<

i got back my results today, still it's a 30fold and i know my 100 fold is on it's way

'shape and transform me, from glory to glory
in every area of my life'

2009-07-22T10:28:00.002+08:00

yikkes, i have chinese listening compre later, im gonna to smear anointing oil on my ears. haha!
i screwed my a math paper real bad, i was trying out some of the qns i couldnt do yesterday and those that i did, and i realised i got my ans wrong. sigh.. it's so frustrating, coz you know you could do it but then, you couldnt. that really sucks.
i was dissapointed la, i dont deny coz i studied for it. but oh well, it's over, there's always next time. and when i start doing well for amath, it's really God's grace.
im dissapointed also coz i didnt get pbb, i feel so exploited. i mean it's 4 days, no joke!
i was mad when i got the results and my talk about burning down gb hq, haha im not doing that even though i felt like it. reason, just coz i know vengence is the Lord's. hoho

and last week and last last week was a really really dry period. i really didnt feel like doing anything,like i just get depressed easily for no reason. im so glad im out of it alr. and stronger than before.
and when i talk to people around me, i feel so blessed. i mean i dont struggle with stuff they struggle with and it makes me so much more joyful even after listening and pouring my overflow into their lives. im not empty, infact more filled. and it's just so amazing to see people, after talking to you, get out of their shell and start being a lil happier again. i guess it's the power of God. it's just so awesome!
i really cant describe it, but i guess you have to feel it yourself. and sat was really good, for me. serious.
i feel this security once again, and i know he can do mighty things for me, in me and through me.!
HE will!

even though i feel dissapointed over things that happen, esp for amath, but it's just a weird kinda joy inside me that's keeping me up and expecting greater and better things. and mummy argued with me over lame stuff, idk im taking my hands off, im submitting coz when im not in control, i know someone greater is and when he is, i know all is well :) i mean sometimes i argue with my parents and stuff, but i learn something from it. haha i know this is matured thinking, shocking to some people ;P

excited for the zone concert! ive never been for a hillsong conference, but who cares, HE can buy back my kyros time.

so again i say , as he is so am i in this world! a thousand may fall at my side, ten thousand at my right but they shall not come near me
i ask, believe and i receive!

2009-07-17T22:19:00.001+08:00

still you are God above everything (:

2009-07-03T18:44:00.004+08:00

I HATE HOMEWORK!!
this school is piling work on us like crazy. how insane is this. four teachers called/sms me to ask me to hand up my homework when the work is due 12 midnight. grrrrr
and i dont uds mummy now, she's nice, i mean i still love her alot alot. but yesterday again, i dont know why she started telling me and jonathan off about the same thing again..what i mean if you dont want to do it then dont.
and she's doing it so often and it doesnt make anyone happier.
the worse part, she scolded me behind my back but it was loud enough for me to hear. i am so angry. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr but the best part is this, this happened like on wed and yesterday and not today. and today i'm a smiley and happy person. COOL
aya i just dont know what's she angry about lah serious, daddy me and jon see nothing wrong with it
and there's dare tmr, cool right
whalao i just found out that all of us turned fdown gylc because of prelims and prelims are postponed. seriously, when God opens the doors, he'll make sure everything falls nicely into place. shouldnt have reasoned, should have just taken it up and go. but oh well, nvm he can buy back my kyros time, the next one will be more prestigious and glorious!

2009-07-02T00:49:00.001+08:00

im afraid i'm falling into this..slowly
i dont want to..

2009-06-29T20:17:00.004+08:00

whoa, i'm definitely back from pbb.surprisingly it was kinda fun coz of my group. we're all of the same wave length and we couild click very very quickly. and i found out avryl lee is born on the SAME day as me and SAME hospital somemore! whooo cool right?
haha and this girl is crazily funny. i found out she was from st hilda's and i said 'so your principal is ong kim soon right?'
and then she replied almost immediately, 'ya. why? your father ah?' OMG, it was funny enough
okay and the other few days she made me laugh so much with the 'flee-fly-mosquito' cheer and other stuff, and for survival cooking, she was one of the ' chef'. but the food was not bad lah. but we bought too much cherry tomatoes and we couldnt finish. so she said 'come hide under our hair then say got tumour' -_-!! OMG, that was so..hilarious.
anyway, there are alot of other funny stuffs that she did. and my group was awesomely bonded, fun and i took away alot. kay and then i reached home at 4++ and i immediately went to sleep, but mummy woke me up to tell me to go for father's day dinner. so i woke up and then jeryn, david and abel called me. wow divine timing ah, haha
and i came home and i couldnt get back to sleep so i just watched a dvd till i slept.

kay and then monday was LEVEL OUTING!! there's so much to say! i overslept, my bad.. sherrie smsed me at 6.52 to tell me to meet at 8 but i woke up at 7.40/45 and realised i'd be late. so i rushed to get out and realised i needed to print the games manual, so i walked back and printed it so i ended up late and i cabbed TO marine cove. whalao the sir-charge was $9.20, this is extortion!! all in all i paid $19++, how crazy??
anw when i reached i saw abel alone and the rest were late. haha and three who were supposed to be late, gitte, bev and david were not late. WOW hahahaha
and there is really too much to say, but the whole outing was awesomely awesome esp the p&w and ministering. really when you step out and serve, you receive extra! (: (:

and the rest of the week was mundane, just tuition and tuition. wow and this must be God, i saw isaac kang and his friend at taka on sat. so amazing la, i dont rmb running into him anywhere else, but he already stepped down as ys, quite a pity lah :(
and sunday was good (: jeryn, abel and me talked so much while studying and the sermon was GOOD! and dgs meeting and stuff. wha i was so embarrassed. i was in the toilet with jeryn, gillian, christina, gitte and coach maddy and michelle called me to say there was no school. i screamed and jumped and i went out to tell everyone and in the end, it turned out that only phs has no school :D:D and everyone whalao me..... i almost dug a hole in the floor to hide and then whole dgs meeting,,,, everytime coach talked about making noise then everyone 'rachel, rachel....' gahh anw, there's therefore now no condemnation!! whoohooo!!! :D:D:D

and abel said his second name, simeon blessed jesus and lived till a ripe old age. and the other guys were saying 'why. coz abel died young so must get another name so can neutralize right?' omg, how did they come up with that. LOL

ps. the rachel of the bible was lovely in form and beautiful! whoo AMEN AMEN

2009-06-17T19:30:00.002+08:00

i'm going for pbb tmr. i dont really really want to go. kuenkuen called me yesterday while i was at marine cove that qn's not coming anymore, and we were like maybe we shouldnt go at all..
and then we gave each other 24 hours to decide whether we would go for pbb but after everything, we decided we should just go la otherwise i'll testimonials would be like ..........all the effort down the drain.
yeah and we decided that since we are going, we'll go with a positive, enthusiastic attitude. we are going there to enjoy the camp even though it might be concentration camp. idk? but in any case, yeah

i know i'll get my pbb coz it's blood bought, but the whole point is whether i'll enjoy my 4 days there. whether i'll be laughing away or sulking my way through. so attitude is very important! haha this sounds so mature. anyway jonathan went to obs and i know hes having so much fun like i did last year, omg i miss obs laaaa
and he's coming back on friday but i wont be at home on friday.

anyway i had a really really awesome time yesterday at marine cove. we were supposed to go and dry-run the games and recce the place and it was just so funny. haha all the games were like GOOD!
we had this game fishes and catching nets and almost all the girls were the nets and the guys were the fishes. and they were so fast we couldnt catch them and we just falling down. and then meishi and me turned around and shouted ' i cannot i got sweaty palms' and then they laughed. but it's really hilarious, i mean it's just so funny. and then in the end sherrie asked the guys to take over and then david and abel said 'this is the men's team!' haha omg. and then taizi came around and shouted so loudly 'i told you the guys should do the dirty job, why the girls do all the hard work!!?!?!?' hahahaa but she was kidding la
and then there were other games la, like lorms. taizi and david were at the first station, bread eating competition and then of course david finish eating first la, and then sherrie counted down and all of us were like 'taizi jiayou!!!' and then she stuffed everything in her mouth. this girl ah, reallly one funny and cute girl! and then me and meishi did a failure demonstration and then taizi had to eat again, and we failed again and she ate again. HAHA
and crows and cranes! omg that was so funny. at first the girls were cranes and the guys were crows. and then when sherrie shouted crows, we must chase the guys. so when she shouted crows, all of screamed and ran backwards a few steps and then we saw the guys running and we were all '*hi*!' haha and then they said we have to move the safety zone backwards and wanru and jeryn said 'wha so far. okay we move back' then all of us moved back and we just tried to catch each other. yesterday was a fruitful day la, and i encouraged myself in the Lord. HOHO

and brandon said really shockingly intelligent words. HAHA

2009-06-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

overflowing overflowing!
hahah study seminar on saturday was really awesome. i mean it was engaging and anoitned. cool and coach told me about my giftings and stuff and it's really not pure coincidence that opportunities are coming my way. whoo!
okayy i havent done janicelim's homework which was due this time yesterday but ahya i really dont have the time to do it now..rarrh
i know of this 'chio' girl who likes one of my friend. haha he's kinda stuck now..it was so hilarious, i mean not the fact but our conversation. omg know i was sourcing for good-looking girls on facebook yesterday and then i realised that singapore girls still have that 'standard'.

and i finally touched the newspaper after 2 weeks and they were talking about 'hot' singtel girls i think fascinated by some f1 racer and it writes something like 'so now your engines and your speed can actually attract hot girls to yoú' something like that la, i'm too lazy to take the newspaper now.
but what? no way la. i mean i guess this kinda relationship wont last, i mean how to? and please, the speed of a f1 car on a singapore road, no way, you wont even have the chance to get fined, it'll be confiscated before you even switch on the engines. hahaha
what a revelation right? i know

and i know people do read about this and stuff, so i really hope this place is also a place where people feed.
and i feel so blessed, i mean i've so much more kingdom friends and it's so amazing how everything falls into place.

and this is making me so excited! I'M GOING TO ISRAEL END OF THIS YEAR! amen(:
cant wait la, i dont know whether i'll see snow anot but at least it'll be cold. and my fam's blessssedd!!amen

2009-06-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

i just had this awesome revelation on beauty. not really just, but quite recently.

you define beauty. beauty takes no form, you hold the definition to it. it has so often been stereotyped, people think that you must have a certain feature, height etc etc but they all dont count. everyone is beautiful in his/her own way. when you look long enough, everyone is beautiful.(:

sweet sweet revelation (: i dont know why i just had this smack-right-in-my-face-revelation. hahaha! but i guess it's good?
anyway, i was so sleepy today i had to snooze my alarm four times before i finally woke up. twice on my phone and another two times on my alarm clock. in the end i got so irritated i just woke up. and i had this sudden craving for subway! hahah weird right?
and then i went to school and was just on time for janicelim's lesson. she's quite a nice teacher. and i spent almost half the time copying corrections.. ayo but praise God i got A2 for my hist test which i thought i totally screwed up.
gracegrace (:
i remember walking out and complaining about how irritating the paper was but hahahaha. i'm so happy

and then i had a short talk with mrs lim in the afternoon and then i went for tuition. oh and for science tuition yesterday, michelle suddenly 'updated' me about her life. wow the lesson was so fruitful, not that we did alot but i spent alot of time listening to what she's going through. michelle chua not kwok! hahah
and i realised the importance of being secured coz not only girls feel insecure, guys too! and no one really wants to hand out with insecure guys. i mean i wouldnt want an insecure guy and i have to keep assuring him, it would be more reasonable if it was the other way round.

so moral of the story : Know you're deeply loved! you're special unique and you dont have to put your trust in what people say about you. this is so cooL!

2009-06-05T20:27:00.002+08:00

pastor prince said this before 'God doesnt play catch-up, the devil. when you dont see things happening just yet, or when things seems against you, it's because God has poured out a new and special anointing. and the devil tries to counter it.' amen i have blood-bought victory! i not only have the victory, i have the VICTOR. isnt that much cooler :D coz everything i turn to, will prosper, prosper means not only getting the natural results but the SUPERNATURAL, something good and unexpected. amazed and not shocked (:

i feel so overflowing right now. haha this is so cool.

this is such a blessing, yesterday night i prayed that i'll have more time to study for my history since i came back so late from faith's birthday dinner and i was reading through my history textbook, and i suddenly felt very sleepy so i thought i'll just go and sleep and wake up earlier today. but guess what, i couldnt. i couldnt pull myself out of bed.
and i kinda figured that i'll fail the test anyway and i just prayed for more grace today.
and when i reached school michelle said this 'rachel, tell you something, the test has been postponed for 1 hour'. i was like why????? i was prepared to fail, just get it over and done with, why postpone it and only for an hour. and then ruban came down and said it was postponed to 9.30. that's 1.5 hours!
so i said i'll look for her and in the end she came down and our test was really postponed, not for an hour, not for 1.5 hours but till next week. HOW AMAZING!! this is favor!

and we spent history lesosns today analysing really mind-boggling stuffs, but it's still better than the test. haha
the only options we had was
1) take the test and 1 person pass and the other 13 fail
2) take the test next week and all pass

of course the second sounds more logical la! hahah but it's really, i recognize it, it's ablessing :D
and then i had dont know how long of tuition, i almost died if not for grace, and that's the reason i'm blogging now instead of studying. coz if you can see, my brain is swelling from all the math. it's MATH
and auntygeokeng said ' it's not that bad, you had a break'
and i said ' it's bad enough, let's draw a parallel. it's like you having 4 hours + of chinese tuition'
and she looked at me and laughed. HAHA really what..

and yesterday was the best day so far of the whole week. we had 3 hours break and shuqing, mich, mal and evan came to my house awhile and then we went to plaza sing for lunch. it was so fun, i mean not the food or whatever but the company. i'm telling you, shuqing and malvina and even michelle qualify to be future comedians! they never fail to make me laugh. and we just found out why carl's jr can still be in the market. it's because of the glass wall (?) coz people keep walking into it, so everytime you knock it down, you pay 100bucks. and if you knock it too hard, you'll flip. HAHA. and the jokes and riddles that are not funny yet funny! it's just so unfunny that it becomes so funny. :D

2009-06-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

this is so weird! i'm actually kinda missing jonathan. received smses that they're doing well and they got 440 souls saved! oh man, i know he's so happy and excited now and i bet he's over the moon now. hahaha
but it's so weird, i actually kinda miss him know! i guess it's because he's more matured now and we talk to each other more than fighting with each other nowadays.. that's why

i believe that l i'm believing Daddy will come to pass!

had english oral today coz we had science practical exam yesterday and was supposed to be the first few to have oral since tohweiseng said so but sherlliechong (<<>absent ourselves we have to wait today. excuse me!! we didnt absent ourselves, we had practical exams.

and i had tuition today.. but today wasalright, coz auntygeokeng spent alot of time cooking shepherd's pie and glenn was there. haha small cute boy :D
and i left earlier too so that's cool (:
and i went to ikea. i promise when i move house, i'm shopping at ikea and i'll diy everything. i'm trusting to move to either bishan or buonavista okay!! hahah
say amen people hoho!
okay i dont have spa tmr while almost everyone else has so i can eake up late. :D i almost couldnt get out of bed this morning. the rain and the overcast sky made it so comfortable to sleep in, but ..there was school so how much longer could i sleep..

2009-06-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

chinse o level is finally over. and i say again, FINALLY
i dont plan to retake anymore..
anyway, qi si wo le!
my group of friends all not in school today, reason beingm all higher chinese, all distinctions last year. ayo cannot take it, what about 'jing zhu zhe chi, jong mo zhe hei' ??? shouldnt i also be one of the distinctions??
haha but i'm okay already, i thought the paper was rather okay..
wow and i almost didnt have time to finish paper 2 and when i was about to put somemore anointing oil, the teacher came and took my paper. i was like 'why so kiasu?'
anyway the anointing lingers and the anointing oil i put before i started the paper will last!

and cheryl's birthday surprise on sat. it was hilarious. she wasnt supposed to know and we had to go to her house and surprise her. and we were supposed to be there first so she'll be surprised to see us. but the funny thing is, we got there later than her. HAHA! so we waited downstairs for everyone to come before we go up and surprise her. whoa we waited really quite long, and michelle and shuqing were doing some tango :D
and imitaing my 'catwalk'. haha, basically we were having fun lah
and shuqing is imaginative, haha we kinda chanted 'rachellee, rachellee' and then she said later all the trees also move and shake and the buildings also. and then the clouds. and i laughed very very loudy. and michelle said 'ni men liang ge ke yi pai sesame street'
haha NO WAY! i dont like sesame street. but the thought of it was very very cute.
anyway we went up and this cherylphua die die dont want to open the door. and we had to wait so long :X
and we watched our present, a video of all the future mediacorp actresses. omg i was a snoobish and arrogant taitai! michelle was some gangster that 'bang table bag chair', shuqing was 'ms ong-teacher' and giang hwee was some.. i dont know also. haha and mal was the rap-per

jesus you're my faith
no evil will come near my tent
i thank you i'm redeemed
jonathan has gone to cambodia so i now declare his iphone is mine for the next 5 days. WHOO!!:D

haha and kezia was telling me today that she was singing herself to sleep yesterday. she was singing 'jesus loves me!' and i was singing 'lord i reign in this life coz you've bought me with the highest price, highest price, highest price.'
hahahahah. it's so cutee!!
and i know that alot of Daddy's beloveds are sitting for the same exam, but i dont care, i'm highly favored and i'm precious, period !
i was kinda pissed yesterday when __ said i was lousy at chinese and stuff, i felt really really angry i mean really wrong time okay. it's exam today, so was __ trying to build me up or tear me down? i think the second. anyway, gracegrace, i'm forgiven much to forgive much :D

2009-05-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

i am currently watching the show flood on channel 5. oh man, it is so addictive, i mean it is scary but i just cant stop watching.. ahhh! i was supposed to be chinese compo but now i'm watching tv..sigh

I DONT EVER WANT FLOOD.!!
so many died in that show and i never ever want to die by drowning. i mean it's the worse way to die, you need to breathe but then you cant, but then you need to, but you just cant...
that's so miserable.
LOL
kay i'm going to watch my show again

oooh and north korea is going to war with south korea, but i thought they were already at peace with each other, but 50 years later they are fighting again. sigh. :/
i was just doing history notes on the korean war this afternoon

that's why psalm 91 is cool, makes me secure. haha
and love is important too! what a revelation huh? but i didnt get it today la. i got it yesterday at service :D:D
oh and service was AWESOME:D

2009-05-25T18:38:00.002+08:00

this is taken like ages ago..but i took it from cheryl's blog! there's more but oh well, i'm too lazy to take all of it. HAHA
see michelle looks so cute! HAHA like mikki. the a math book abit anti-climax la

too small to be seen :/

i jumped the highest! does it mean i'm the tallest? LOL

2009-05-25T16:15:00.003+08:00

i had this vision yesterday night! and i love it(:
bring it to pass daddy, by this year(:

i feel so blessed today, really. i had such a good time at lunch with kezia and michelle and lihuan! ((: just really laughed everything away..whatever i'm thinking of.

and today __ was telling me about her stuff and out of all, she told me. know that really makes me feel so good, like favored know

yeah and i had this really beautiful vision of myself yesterday night while listening to this is our God by hillsong. and i know it will come to pass coz my daddy's word is final! he says i'll reign

and church yesterday was really really GOOD. i have no doubts about that.

ss paper today? it was alright with anointing oil. hee
it's the sbq qns 1c, grrrr i couldnt interpret the source. i mean there's this graveyard at the back but i couldnt figure out if those were the graves of the people who died during the 911 attack or the people who died in the war on terror.. but anyway, gracegrace. (:
and venice, hahaha yay! all the facts just came to my head as i was writing. praise God la, so cool right?? before the exam i was just asking rayner why there isnt fact sheet this time when we really need it.. and i was kinda hoping for the best, expecting something good but the minute i sat down, i forgot most of it. but i was very very sure i was going to do the question on venice no matter what so i plunged straight into the qns when i saw it.

i want to do blogshoppin again.. but i need to save money.:( but it's for good cause, something that i'll never regret. kay i'll go maybe next month or something when it's the start of the month.

it's english exam tmr but oh whatever lah. there's nothing much to study for english other than reading through format. OH! i forgot to ask isaac kang how to score for summary. oh well, i'll ask my wisdom. hee

shidalakahlalalashikalasokahlabalashekeleamasohetalamahka!
i love you(:but you love me more than anything

2009-05-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

there is a peace
there is a joy
that settles here
in your presence

when your face is very near
your love erases every fear

it's the power of your presence
it's the strength of your hand in mine
it's the glory of your greatness
that has the power to change my life/____

2009-05-24T21:26:00.001+08:00

OVERFLOWING!!
I FEEL SO LOVED RIGHT NOWM AND HIS GRACE IS SOO SWEET! (:

2009-05-24T08:39:00.002+08:00

praise and worship yesterday was AWESOME!
imagine having it on thebeach. whoo! it's beyond words and i felt touched over again. really something i was looking forward too. it was :D:D
my legs are so tired now from all the jumping but it was really stuffy in the middle so we went to the back.

i heard carnival was so much fun, tsk if i didnt have exams, i'll surely go, no doubt about that. but the blatant fact is when everybody is enjoying themselves, getting a break from school work, mine begins. :X

but everyday will get better and better i'm sure.

yesterday i was so worried about a few things. one of them is of course exams. i just couldnt memorize ss.. i never had this problem but yesterday i just couldnt. and my math is like spiral-ling down and i have no idea why.. my chem isnt scoring like it should and chinese o levels are coming again and i'm not nearly prepared and that is really bad..

and i just brought all these and some others which are way too personal and went and seriously, i felt relieved and peace.it was cool! we should have more of these. HAHA
i cant wait for the zone in july. i'll definitely go!

alright, i gtg now. (:

2009-05-23T09:02:00.002+08:00

just finished my breakfast. and today will be ss study day!
i'm currently using daddy's new comp and i like it coz of the big screen, but he said that big screen heavier
i was like 'then give me lah!'
and then he said ' cannot, later jonathan also want how'
and then i said ' then buy another one for him and yourself lah'
and he gave me that -_- face. hahah! he knows me lah, i'm just kidding coz if i really want it i think i'll keep harping on it and pressursing them
hoho! i really mmust study today coz i'm going for play!'s p&w. i cant afford to slack today, serious

i finally finish the history notes( not my debt)
i think i'll just stay back after school to repay my debts, and there's still a pile of homework for me to clear, as well as tuition homework..grrr why must sec4 life be so hectic??
i really should have worked really hard in primary school and get into IP. i see david and abel like quite happy? idk but they dont seem like they have alot of hw or maybe they just do it behind closed doors lah! hahaha

okay this is my plan and i pray i dont procrastinate!

9-12 finish all sec4 ss topics and half of sec3's topics
12-12.30 break
12.30-2 do hist notes (my debt)
2-2.30 bio worksheet
2.30-4 rest of sec 3 syllabus

and it's like 9 plus already so i shall go

2009-05-21T18:40:00.002+08:00

hee.. i feel so much better today. like alot
i went to church ytd and so many people can! uncle thiong hee went to queue at 4.30.
anw favor and grace, i had seats (: but gave it up in the end, but it's out of the overflowing so i'm happy to do it anw.
and i was refreshed, renewed, rejuvenated. haha the 3 Rs

and at school today,it was really better. omg i really have to start studying! i need the motivation, God help me !
almost went to army market today but it was closed so yeah, stayed at home instead..
i'm going tmr but maybe the one at yishun la but again, out of the overflowing so it isnt really a burden having to do it. but i'm happy doing it
teeehhhheeeezzz!

i've been summarizing the last chapter of hist textbook for 2 hours now but i'm not nearly done..
history can be mind-boggling but at the same time interesting, putting yourself in their shoes and making sense of what they did.

and we played this really ridiculous game during cf today. alright not really ridiculous but it was the impression all of us got at first when we saw the cd-rom. but after a while we just loved it, most of us played it twice. :D
i remember me turning to michelle and her turning to me before mrlau was talking and we both whispered almost at the same time 'propaganda'
haha! but it turned out to be not bad afterall. amazing huh?

and then we had really really short remedial lessons. whoo! this is how it should be like

God please pour out your grace on my o level chinese
and like what enjo said, my daddy's word is final
he says i'll be the head and not the tail and it shall be

2009-05-19T16:55:00.002+08:00

i survived 2 tests today! whoo! and this is the best part. frankly speaking i cheated for my 2.4 but NO CONDEMNATION la. anyway, then mryeo said i failed. and i went to him and said
'mr yeo, i dont think i failed'
and he looked at me and said 'yes i dont think you failed too. what's your timing rachel?'
and i asked 'what is the passing mark?' and he looked at me!
i immediately replied 'i passed by the skin of my teeth. i think by a few seconds or something?'
and then he just gave me a passing time. WHOO!
I DONT HAVE TO RUN FOR MY 2.4 THIS YEAR! :D:D
this is favor man, seriously
but i really ran last the beginning of this term, twice somemore just that i prolly cheated or it wasnt recorded la, ahh i cant remember.

anyway idk why but there's this bit of envy inside me when i see so many people online. there werent there just 2 weeks back but now seems though everyone is. their mid-years are over! but me? no way, when all my tests finally end, prelims start..
i really dont know what's wrong with my school. our time practices started like one month back and prelims start next week and we still have lessons during the hols. dont they care if we're overstreched?
even christopher said that all the tests makes us feel so restless sometimes we dont even bother to study for it. how true. so many people share the same sentiments. they should do something about it! i hate this kinda schooling life. not that i hate tests or anything, but i dont like this feeling..
i'm going to church tmr regardless of how much hw i have. they aint gonna stop me!

going to take a sweet nap now. been really tired since yesterday..

this is when i rely on supernatural strength(:

2009-05-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

i'm so tired. i want a break, a real break..
today wasnt really a great day for me.
i dont know what tmr holds
BUT i know who holds tmr! and it'll be good

sigh i just dont feel like doing anything. i just want to sleep for as long as i can, maybe forever? idk

2009-05-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

dare yesterday was really good. pastor keith gave a really good illustration.
anyway, i really have nothing much to say other than i'm feeling very restless, not-in-the-study mood. that i really hate. LOL
i seriously dont like the way our school does things. i dislike having dont know how many tests a week. and prelim 1 is coming. it's feels like i havent taken a break and then i got to start my engines for this marathon.

2009-05-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

THE DAY I ALMOST RAN OVER A DOG!
went out with shuqing, lihuan, michelle, cheryl, rachellee, giang hwee, malvina and peiling on monday for my long awaited birthday celebration with michelle and gianghwee. i had tuition before that so i ended up late. anyway it wasnt that late. HAHA
when i reached, cheryl told me 'michelle you dai gou' and i was like ' where?!'
and then i looked and saw mikki. yeah and then we went to the park, it was near empty! how amazing. it was supposed to be filled, i guess?
then this cherylphua and woelihuan came up with this banana-squash-cum-captain's-ball game. it's basically replacing the ball with a banana in a zip-lock bag. and we played. it was fun i must say.haha until the banana dripped out from the hole. it really dripped la! imagine how watery and squashed it must have been..
then this cherylphua wanted to change pants but too lazy to walk to the toilet. so we all took an umbrella and stood in a circle with her hiding inside to cover her. haha! and then it was hilarious! :D but censored!!
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hee and then shuqing's turn! haha it was so funny ! omg i dont know how to say it but i really LAUGHED OUT LOUD!
we went cycling and michelle and shuqing were supposed to cycle the double seater bike with mikke in the basket infront of the rider. but she couldn't start it so i saved the day! okay i'm just bragging, i didnt save the day.. i tried to. i cycled kay and mikki is a DOG right infront of me. whoo, i'm proud to say i could still cycle quite well despite the distraction. i couldnt keep my eyes of mikki because i was so scared it would lick me finger or something.but nevertheless, my journey was relaxed.
and then we went to the beach to camwhore. it began to rain, like why?!?!
and we had to rush back but the leash this time wasnt tight and while i was on the most perilous part of thejourney, mikki probably afriad made up his mind to leave me in the lurch and jump out of the bike -_-! and i screamed
i couldnt stop the bike, we were going downslope and it's a double-seater bike, it's heavier than the usual bike. i saw the bike run over mikki's paws but thank God he was okay.
i almost had a heart attack, serious. my heart was in my mouth. i was so scared i had crippled mikki. Praise God he's fine, serious.
and at that time, it started pouring.. how sweet :X

so we cycled back to the kiosk and i held the leash tighter than ever and this mikki tried to jump out again but because the leash was so tight, it was hanging out of the basket. and then i started screaming again and stopped thebike and asked shuqing to grab him. HAHA and she was also afraid so she ended up almost scratching him and at that time, the hero came!
it was malvina(: she took mikki out and walked him back

HA HA i was so relieved. someone had tried to commit suicide right infront of my eye thrice that day. and then dinner and the bus ride was really whoo! really got together and talked and we talked so much (:

alright, though scary but it was FUN! we havent had time out together in such a long time. and these are the people that i have walked with so closely since sec 1, i'll miss them really. haha i'll upload pictures another time.

i LOVE:
michellekwok
cherylphua
rachellee
ongshuqing
woelihuan
tangianghwee
liangpeiling
AND
malvinagoh

:D:D

2009-05-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

dare last week was AWEEESSSSOOOMMEEE. p&w was 1.5 hours i think?
idk but i was so tired after that.
and anyway went for grandma's birthday cum mother's day dinner. and mummy said to come down in 10 mins, and before 10 mins she was already there. and she called and yelled at me..grrr. i wasnt late ehh
but anyway so filled with joy it didnt bother me

and then sunday! studied at subway. it was kinda fun because of the talking? and during service, it wasnt pastor.p :X i mean it was him, just on dvd not live. but it was the 'now' word la. (:

and this week? was okay, so much favor with teachers. omg i just dont know how to explain it but it's really favor from above (:
but i felt quite ... on thurs but after talking to coach i really really felt much better. i really didnt understand at first, i just felt bad about it even though i know it's not my fault at all. and i dont have to feel condemned, i'm redeemed from it, completely! yeah and talking to coach just helped me to look at it very differently
and the long weekend? one day's gone already but there's two more. bbq on monday! cheryl phua and ong shu qing lah, make me feel so excited for it already.
but i love you girls (:

kay i seriously dont know what else to say, so bye

2009-04-29T22:17:00.004+08:00

something is really really wrong with blogger. i've been trying for the past 15minutes to log in and i finally did.
and history was alright, as usual. i kinda like mrs lim now. HAHA, that's a good thing. i still remember complaining so much when miss ong left but now, i'm enjoying my history lessons

anyway i wasted alot of time today, seriously alot. so much for taking a SHORT break, turned out to be a really loonnng one. but i'm happy! at least i did something useful :D

boy! i'm so excited for dare tmr!!! whoo! joy unspeakable
i have no idea why but i started getting excited about 4-5 hours ago when i saw the email coach mel sent.
but before that, i have math tuition. boohoo :X

i seriously ate alot today, but i'm under grace, unmerited and undeserved favor soooo... i wont get fat! yeah praise God
and supernatural = against the natural
means i'll become thin!
yeah man, no way i'm sorrying about anything. jesus took it on the cross and i'm worry-free ((:

2009-04-27T19:29:00.003+08:00

we had so much food leftover we were just trying to throw food from one table to the other. and this is the best part.

xiyan: zhiqiang says he's coming for dinner

mummy: oh zhi qiang's coming? 'ehh zhiqiang yao lai chi fan!' (shouts across to the aunties and uncles, then brings a whole plate of chicken wings to our table

xiyan: i dont think he can finish all these (laughs)

omg la, the reaction was super funny. suddenly our table was just bombarded with food.:(

2009-04-27T19:08:00.002+08:00

POP's finally over and i'm going for pbb :/
i hope i wont regret it..
okay if i get to go, God will give me more than enough grace(: yea
anw pop's finally over and that's a really really good thing. it was so hot lah, wonder what's wrong with the earth right now! and our band didnt want to play. what is this?!?!
how impossible right, but well they're not military band also
kay then on sat, i went for tuition before going for meishi's party (:
and isaac totally ps la! anw, we got her present and cabbed there. and i didnt get to go on the luge ride :(
yeah and on sunday service was awesome man
C-choose to cast all your cares upon him
A-ask God to forgive me for worrying andcarrying the burdens i should not be carrying
S- settle it in your heart that God cares for you abundantly
T- throw all your cares away

i was sitting with meishi at the overflow, and this girl i really thank God for (:
school was alright today. know what i didnt bring my ss book and praise God janice lim didnt collect at all. woohoo! talking about undeserved favor
and ss test today was ...okayy except the last qns but i didnt really study that so my heart isnt aching. just my hands. there's math test and chinese prelims tmr but there's like almost nothing to study ehh.. how miraculous
but i'll still read through

now there's the swine flu going around and school's asking us to bring thermometer again! maybe it's gonna be like sars and then we all wont have to go to school! YAY XD but it's gonna be horrible..:S
aya but who cares lah, i'm under the wings of the almighty! me and my family. whoo! so i'm safe

cheryl made a cake for my birthday today. omg it was awesome! i'll get the pics from her when i get the chance. the cakes she bakes are just getting better and better each time. if one day she opens a bakery i dont mind investing know! haha sure make money one!

2009-04-22T19:50:00.002+08:00

i'm letting go and letting God
bring my desires to pass like how you brought abraham's inheritance to pass
amen

2009-04-22T10:37:00.002+08:00

whooo! my voice is soo sexyy! hahaha
i'm reading up history now know..haha so hardworking right?
turns out that i brought my geog and hist textbook back so i can actually study. haha divine timing man!
watching some videos on youtube and wow! i think lky's really a good government..
i am not bootlicking or anything but i just looked at everything going on at that time and present-day singapore, i must say that we've come a very very long way. yesh

anyway, i'm so much better now.:D so i'll be going back to school tmr, how cool right? i gave up my mc for school, first time in history.. i'll probably upload some pictures later coz people always say my posts are too wordy.. aya but that's me what, i talk alot so also write alot mahh
haha, okay that was frigging lame

2009-04-21T17:38:00.002+08:00

who stays at home sick during her birthday? me :(
grrr..my temp totally 'sky-rocketted' in the morning and went to see doc again
and guess what i got another 2 days mc. but i'll probably go back on thurs if i'm better otherwise i'll gonna such a horrible time catching up
my nose hurts...pfff

anw spent some time listening to sermons today and pastor prince was talking about grace. grace is attracted to weakness, when we say i cant, that is when God says i can. when we say we can and struggle hard we will never achieve that fast. yeap amen! that was a revelation.
i'ver made up my mind, i'm not going to cheapen your grace, it's purely underserved and unearned but because you love me i'm receiving all of it. amen. i;m just gonna pray in the spirit, holy comm and anointing oil. because all these are God's grace present to me. it's the little things that confound the mighty, how true man!

haha and to my dear radical! i love you guys alot alot and i thank you for all your calls and wishes. i really really appreciate them alot :D thanks beloveds
and to school friends: thanks so so so much for being so caring and concerned and all your wishes. i reallylove you guys know! :D omg i cant believe i just said that. hahaha

2009-04-20T10:46:00.002+08:00

how cool is this man!?! NO ONE'S ONLINE! haha :D
i'm sick :S had a fever yesterday morning but i stuffed myself with ice cream, root beer float and pepsi with meishi, bev and sherrie, issac kang,keegen, donotus and matthew
and i felt awful during service..
i felt so much like vomitting, my neck was aching and my back too.. but i just kept declaring that by his stripes i'm healed! and after a while i didnt feel like vomitting anymore.. mummy brought me to the doctor's after dinner and my temperature was 38.7!! how crazy man!! and the doctor said ' if there's rashes or still feverish by wednesday must come back for review coz it might be dengue' -_-!!
i reject that amen!
woke up feeling so much better but now i'm sneezing and my nose is like a tap :S
and bridgitte just called me and she's also sick. haha
God will turn this situation around for me man! i'll probably lose fats after everything. haha

dare was awesome like seriously, i just cried during the last two songs..
i just felt so loved and refreshed and i just felt so sorry for cheapening his grace.:/ Holy spirit suddenly revealed to me that ' hey, grace is underserved and unearned. it's in his loving kindness that you will receive what you need and he Daddy just delights in giving it to you' OMG i felt so so so loved once again
that i can receive my inheritance (everything i'm trusting for) coz it's bought with the blood of jesus! what more can i say? he's awesome-ly good!
after that i had this really short video shoot for pastor.p. i really appreciate him alot. he's been revealing the beauty and grace of jesus and i just .. love this guy man! (with the love of Christ) he's really really anointed

had dinner and was just talking to meishi, abel and joey. and we were sharing food and i'm sick ! :(
i pray they'll be fine (:
and i just had a really really good time. i mean i just love sitting around over food with really good friends and just chatting and joking around. ahh! that's my hobby man! hahah
and yesterday while queueing, meishi was just talking to me. she said ' you have to feel secure inside before it can be revealed outside' she has become so much prettier now than when i first knew her. this is so true! that's why i'm gonna feel so loved and secure inside and then it will be revealed outside in everything. just watch man!

haha know i really dont mind staying at home but i dont want to spend my birthday at home sick.. i wanna go to school and there's pop parade rehersal on tues! pffffff D:
i wanted to study history and i realized i didnt bring it home.. and then i wanted to study geog and i also didnt bring home -_-
how sad lah! i'll probably study abit later..

2009-04-17T19:39:00.001+08:00

help me Daddy, i can't but you can
take the wheel
i know you will honour me
i will not be in want
you will satisfy me more than i want to be satisfied
as i stand upon your word..

2009-04-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

had POP rehersal today
can say that it was rather fun lah even though quite waste time
but again! i'm gonna miss them so so much, the times we had together

today was rather okay but i cant believe tmr is friday already! i mean it's so so fast!! like in the blink of an eye 4 days have passed..
haha there's dare this sat and i cant wait

this is my prayer in the battle
when triumph is still on its way
i am a conquerer and co-heir with Christ
so FIRM on his promise i'll stand

2009-04-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

2009-04-11T08:21:00.002+08:00

how would you know supernatural unless you know what is natural?
cool huh?
supernatural = working against the natural (iron floating on water)
^__________^

2009-04-10T16:48:00.003+08:00

Take my hand
take a breath

Pull me close and take one step

Keep your eyes locked on mine,

And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me

(now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)

We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing)

wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (

can I have this dance)

Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead

And every turn will be safe with me

Don't be afraid,

afraid to fallYou know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart

(even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)

'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough,

oceans too wide'

Cause together or not,

our dance won't stop

Let it rain, let it pour

What we have is worth fighting for

You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)

did i mentioned i love this song?? anw, it's one of my favourite songs! (:

yay! my future husband (if i ever get one) has to sing this man!LOL

2009-04-09T20:56:00.001+08:00

i thank God for her seriously!

and her too! my dearest dearest friend! (:

and i definitely love you all! we've been through soo much

hi my qian jing da xiao jie! hahah

LOVE! can you see it. everything about this picture is about LOVE

2009-04-09T20:47:00.001+08:00

sweeeeeeeeettt! (:

swwweeeeeetttteeeerrrrrrrr!!!

i love you girls! xD

i really enjoyed! yay! we should try the back-flip again. we MIGHT succeed this time ^^

so...the tallest doesnt always jump the highest. HAHAH!

2009-04-08T21:44:00.002+08:00

mrs lim was so FUNNY today! she wanted to let us watch a history video from youtube and she didnt know that she could pause and let it buff. so she just let it play and stop, play and stop.
and then she clicked replay so all the buffing went down the drain. and we were like ' it's alright! let it buff again'
and then the same thing happened again and she had to buff again. and the third time she was like ' so what should i do now?' and we just said ' just press the play button'
then she was so so so funny. she clicked it so lightly and then withdrew here hand.
omg she's so cute! XD
she's one of the best teachers ehh
hahah. oh and today cai lao shi said i can get a1 for o level chinese. yes amen! xD

i cast all of my cares upon you
i lay all of my burdens down at your feet
and anytime i dont know what to do
i will cast all my cares upon you (:

2009-04-06T21:04:00.004+08:00

i cast all my cares upon you
i lay all of my burdens down at your feet
and anytime i dont know what to do
i will cast all my cares upon you

this is my song in the battle
when truimph is still on its way
i am a conquerer and co-heir with Christ
so firm on your promise i'll stand

i just feel so loved right now (:
saturday and sunday was awesome!
and i really find these songs so much more meaningful than ever

2009-04-04T22:11:00.003+08:00

OMG i just realized this!
the color of my braces are blue and red. blue on top and red below.
and blue = color of GRACE
red= MAN
add them together, purple = royalty

so i look at his GRACE every morning to meet my every want and need !:D
yay

2009-04-01T21:37:00.004+08:00

:S:S:S:S:S:S:S i went on a binge today! :( grrrrr...
anyway what's supernatural unless i know what's natural.
hahah! i'll going to do hist tonight, not now. currently not in the homework mode. yay! at amath tuition today, i could understand and do many other sums :D :D that's so cool!
i dont know, i really hope i'll never regret dropping my subs at all. no way i'm going to regret it, i'll just keep walking forward with what i have and it'll be quality not quantity.
was just talking to kezia and i'm really thankful for this friend (:

the song savior king just rawks

oh oh and today something funny happened. we wanted to prank wendytang by saying that the whole class didnt bring our textbook and me and michelle were like, ' huh really want ah? we sitting right infront today lehh..' but anw we just kept quiet, and then we wanted to prank her, she got so angry and then gim hwa just said ' miss tang, april fool's day' and then wendytang went ' i dont think this is funny...............make me scold you, want to crack another joke and get another scolding?' something like that lah, i cant rmb the exact words. LOL LOL
it totally backfired and she probably took it back by not explaining vectors properly. -_- but among all the math teachers, i think she's like the best already
idk why but i suddenly dont look forward to graduating, in sec 1 i was like how to survive until sec3, now i'm like sec4.. time really flies..

i mean no matter how much i complain about school and cca and stuff, but somehow i've been there for so long. still feel attached somehow, and all the friends. and our honour's nite and stuff and all the combined ug events esp when we have to wake up early, withstand the sun, go home super late, stay back for rehersals etc etc. deep down i kinda miss those times man! at least everyone was together as one and how we have to jump and squeeze just to make sure we're in the picture. and all the raki? trips, feedingmosquitoes, obs and everything, all these are just really really precious memories that i'll never ever forget.. that's why how i wish we were all ip so we'll all be together for another 2 years.
know, i never regretted being in ug but maybe cca yes lah. hahah! i wanted ncc but my mum didnt allow :( but anyways, i'm where i am now just a few more months so i shall try to complain less and enjoy. i'll try..try only.LOL

2009-03-30T18:38:00.001+08:00

2009-03-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

'gah! i dont feel like studying and doing homework, i just want to stay at home one day and sleep all the way.. at service today i was sleepy too but p.prince was cracking jokes so i didnt get to sleep :D

i dk but i feel that they're exploiting us all the way. like we put in our effort into things, even though not very willingly but we still produce the results and this really pissed us off. thanks for recognizing the contribution we've made.. i mean it's saddening to think this is the way we're gonna end everything and for the sweat and tears all this time
tsk tsk, why cant we even have that bit more of recognition and appreciation..
yea thank God i saw coach lily and coach pat today and i told them abit and she said 'recognition is the lord's' yes, otherwise i'll blow :(
anw, it was enrolment service today, imagine how early i have to wake up and i really did nothing much.. and there's school tmr
o levels are like soon but i still dont feel like studying..how?!?!
i really dk but this week has been hectic and i just feel like taking a long long sleep without having to think of waking up the next day, i wish i was back in sec1, with everything i want (and i will still get, yes amen!) and lying in bed, watching tv and maybe eating every holiday. watching my 'tou long zhuang feng pr huan zhu ge ge'. come to think of it, i havent watched them in like dont know how long already...
yea, i wish there was this time machine and i can go back in time, where there's no stress, not so much disspointment and no exploitation! that's the best part!!

2009-03-28T21:42:00.003+08:00

the government must be so glad to have me as a singaporean, or rather my parents. they were so pro- government lah! i supported earth hour okayy! they switched off all the lights and made me and jonathan switch off our computer but the best part is, they switched on the air con! hahah:D worse right
and they had two candles in the kitchen -_-
today has been quite a horrible day :( i'm dead tired and there's enrolment service tmr, means i'll be in school for 12 days straight, waking up early every single day.......what is this man!?!?
i saw the senior's team pd today, no way they could have gotten a cop with that! it was way too good, the judges must have been corkedeye or something and like i was telling chelsea, they must thank God i wasnt there otherwise i think i'll wreak havoc. LOL LOL
but cop lehh, what is this!?!?

2009-03-26T19:47:00.004+08:00

there's just something about me that doesnt go well with the chemistry lab. i was there for practical again, with madeline this time and we were doing this experiment about the speed of reaction. and we were stirring our hcl while waiting for the magnesium to completely dissolve and her thermometer made a hole in the boiling tube. then after awhile while i was stirring i suddenly felt my shirt getting wet and i looked down and realized my boiling tube also broke :S (again) but this time it was so quiet we could just throw it away.anyway 2 people broke stuffs in the same chem lab i was in yesterday. there' just something about that chem lab, like seriously..

but in both situations, i was bailed out, even though it's a small thing, but it reassured me (:
yea, hahah know i slept for 10 hours yesterday! i was waiting to watch the tv at 9 and i had completed all my hw at 8+ so i decided to read the newspaper on my bed ! (bad idea) until i fell asleep and i woke up at 10+. :/ the show already ended:S so i went back to sleep and woke up a few times here and there and replied smses. hahah! not bad huh, i managed to reply with clarity of mind. (: usually i'll just type nonsense and maybe the words wont even come out. hahah:D

and and, i finally really listened and didnt joke during science tuition today. i usually crap around with michelle (tutor) but today, i was serious kay!! hahah got improvement ehh..

and i'm gonna to do my geog homework now despite the fact that miss samantha lim lost my assignments and had the bold cheek to fail me for my assignments! :S tsk
and my extended lessons test also.

2009-03-25T17:27:00.003+08:00

it's gonna be supernaturally natural (:
anyway, i joined integ for chem prac today since i dropped pure chem. and i was sitting with giang hwee and we were doing this experiment (speed of reaction) and as i was talking to her, i hit the measuring cylinder and it fell and broke! i was like omg, and i me and giang hwee just stared at it for about a second before i saw bridgette shouting across ' throw away, throw away!' and then valerie (beside me) came over, threw the glass pieces away and the measuring cylinder under the bench. then me and giang hwee just kept laughing! because they seemed so experienced with this and their reation was so fast. hahahah XD oh man! but it's favour coz even though tohweiseng was in the lab, he didnt hear.
and the next thing, he was standing beside sarah and she she broke the measuring cylinder and he gave her the pink paper to make her pay.. :/
wth..means that tohweiseng isnt deaf, it's favor man! LOL
but anyway, i went to sarah and took the paper and talked to tohweiseng and he forgot about it :D:D:D
yay! i did something nice
and lsp wanted to meet us for pbb test and the test was like.... those qns you really must study for and memorize, and obviously we didnt. coz most of us forgot, or rather it was so last min. yea and afterdoing i looked up and she looked at me and then she came me ' what' look so i just mouthed ' i dont know' and then she continued. and when going through, she was nice until she said ' not like rachel, came without studying. nothing in the head and nothing in the hand' TSK!EXCUSE ME!
why would i camp at gb blog for no particular reason man?! i'm not angry seriously, hahaha i got joy (: but she was like grrrrrr...
and coz of that test, i missed tuition which i have to make up on sat evening so my whole saturday's gone. prelims in the morning, gb in the afternoon and tuition at night. how sad right? that's sec 4 life :S

2009-03-24T22:08:00.004+08:00

I LOVE THESE PEOPLE(:

school has been rather okay for the past two days (: tat's something good.

and i ponned pe today.. i really hope everything will be fine. hope = confident expectation of good

yea and yesterday this director from MTI came and he was supposed to tell us more about globalisation (ss topic) and then he told us so much about the economic crisis. he went like 'since the last crisis in 2002, it took 5 years before every household in singapore got back... this crisis is even worse, it will take at least or more than 5 years before...... this is worse..this is the worst ever recorded in singapore's history...' and as he was crapping, this thought suddenly struck me that hey, even though everything looks so bleak but we're in the world and not of the world! while the waves are crashing outside, 'my family and me, we're just going to lie in jesus's arms and this year is a year of the free favors and whatever we want, ask and receive! yay :D:D:D:D:D that's the life i'm gonna to live. ask, believe, it is mine!

anyway, samantha lim didnt come today so mr wang relieved our class. and he gave us this geog worksheet that i michelle, me, kuenkuen and shiyun really didnt feel like doing so we all just held our pen, write our names and stone. but seriously, it was partly coz we didnt bring our textbook so how to do a question on the chapter she has never taught!?!?! ít's not the student have not learnt, it's the teacher have not taught =p

LOL

english and chinese was fun, dark, cosy and cold = sleep

but i didnt sleep okay!! =p

2009-03-21T21:15:00.003+08:00

I FOUND MY EZ-LINK! :d
turns out that it was with paulyn for the whole week. haha truely God is in the lost and found department and it has jesus blood over it (:
today, we were supposed to celebrate eunice's birthday so i woke up a little earlier than usual, about 6+ and we were all there and eunice overslept! aiyo, so we spent the whole time talking rubbish and crapping and gb today was kinda boring :/
i feel so sad for senior team, but they gave all they had lah(: it's all that matters
and it's sherrie's birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRIE!
and we got her 16 donuts and the unblowable candles. not bad huh the idea..but i feel so bad after saying something but there's no condemnation i know, but..idk, just feel really bad and i want what i say to be a fountain of life, to say the right things at the right time..
yea
anw, dare was fun(: as usual and know, my chem still not bad lehhh! hahaha:D
in exactly one month's time, it's gonna be my birthday. somehow i just dont feel 16, i still feel 14
that's weird but i dont mind being that young all the time
yeap anyway, i kinda run out of things to talk about so yea, i'll chao now

2009-03-20T15:58:00.002+08:00

I LOST MY EZ-LINK :(
i lost my ezlink since like how many days back but i officially lost it today coz i really cant find it anywhere. hmm wonder if that's a good thing or not.. i mean maybe it's a good thing coz i can finally change my photo but it's a bad thing coz now people cant see how much i've been transformed from glory to glory. hah! :D
anyway, p.prince said before that God is in the lost and found department so yeap!
and i have straight hair !
just for 1 more hour. haha went to trim my hair coz it looks so dead and the lady straighten it for me. woohoo! but i'm gonna have to tie up my hair later and of course need to bathe lah, so of course...:/
but i really dont mind my hair if it was abit straighter and neater
haha! today's the last day of holidays and i still have incomplete hw, anw dont bother lah..there'll be time tmr and sunday.
hah! yesterday i didnt go out for ls outing to watch the movie and my mum said i was good (:
haha earning my parent's trust once again
but i seriously wish holidays were longer. but i've been so slack, other than going for tuition i havent done much. and science tuition isnt really tuition coz michelle (tutor) is always making me laugh and she laughs at things that are not funny !! -.- but she's really a blessing to me lah (:
but math is okay lah, i mean sometimes it's so boring that i feel like sleeping, but everytime i go there, i just keep eating and eating and eating :( * definitely not good *

2009-03-19T15:49:00.002+08:00

i look weird in this one.. anyways..

what's my dear friend doing man?!?!

yay ! kuenkuen and paulyn :D

we are the super talented actresses okay! hahahaXD

this is chelsea kissing me !!! HAHAHAHA. take a closer look lah, we're not les

i love this man! the toilet also (:

me and chelsea slacking on our jobs. hoho :D

2009-03-19T15:32:00.002+08:00

i still miss camp alot alot! :(
how unbelievable that i can actually miss going for camp.. but this one is really 'thumbs up! '
anyway, went for server's meeting on tuesday night and p.keith was really really funny and seriously i received alot alot (:
yeap and then i asked mummy whether i could go for supper and she said okay but she only told me not to be back to late. so went for supper with the rest and at 11 she smsed me and asked what time i would be back and gave me 3 missed calls. so i called her back and she screamed into my ear. she was like 'it's already 11! you still dont want to come home issit. you want everyone to wait for you issit. i want you to take a cab home right now! ' so i was like, okay. i left and took a cab home. haha and someone blessed me with $10 :D:D
wow
anyway dont be afraid of blessings right? so i prayed that everything would be alright and when i reached home, miraculously, mummy didnt say anything. just nagged abit and it was over. praise God huh (: yeap
miraculous.
alright, i didnt really blog about the camp so here it is.
day 1 of the camp, i woke up feeling so crappy. i didnt want to go for camp and i was dragging my feet at the same time trying to memorize as many italian terms as i could. i had theory exam the same day you see. haha and yeap. so when i reached school, i saw the whole pioneer team already there polishing their boots and i was like okayyy..
and then there was nothing much actually and left for exam with qian ning. her mum is so so sweet can! haha yeap and i thought the paper was rather okayy so i'm gonna stand and see my salvation come XD
anw, then me and qianning and her mum went .............................................................................. (cannot say..shhh! it's a secret between the both of us) hahaha
yeap and then went back to school and this jedidiah kept making me laugh. grrrr.. but 'most of the time we were slacking on our jobs lah hehe.
that explains the number of pictures we took on my fb.and the next day, it was my turn to plan games and it had to rain. so we played the bonus round which is to transport water as fast as they can using cups with holes and we totally sabo-ed the befrienders by making their hole so big, by the time they reached, the water was also gone. and it was so funny to see their reaction especially when they put the water in their mouth also. then me and chelsea were like 'ehh! rainwater leh..dont drink leh' but they just ignored. and the skit was the best best besttessstt part!
i totally enjoyed it. the preparation was so fun :D
but my legs really hurt from so much of the pushing and falling (:
and the last day, this sec 1 guy didnt want to eat chee chong fan and that was the only thing left since it's the last day. and we counted wrongly so we took his packet..lol but he didnt want to eat what..and then a can of tuna just popped out of no where and this jedidiah again..
opened the can of tuna and poked a fork on top. looked so much like cat food and the guy just looked at it and said he didnt want to eat. i mean seriously, it looks really really bad lah! :S
yeap but i had fun lah. hehe :)
these two days has been quite alright for me so far. other than alot of tuition which is quite fun coz my teachers are kinda like my friends nowadays. i mean i know them for so long already what..
yeap and i'm leaving for science tuition soon.
oh and today i was listening to p.prince sermons on the bus and he was so funny as usual and he made me laugh in the bus. i was so embarrassed and i was trying so hard to contain my laughter. hahahahXD he is one anointed guy seriously and i also want that anointing. haha amen
alright, i'm signing off
:D :D :D

2009-03-16T20:27:00.002+08:00

POST CAMP BLUES ! :(
im back from camp! but this is the best gb camp ever ever! :D
coz there's no ____ and no full u!
haha and coz we're in committee and we really bonded quite alot with each other and the sec 3 bb boys.
haha and wenchong said this is the only camp that we have so much time left over ( which is a good thing)
camwhoring pictures are on facebook :D:D

2009-03-10T23:20:00.001+08:00

have been worried about some stuffs lately.. i mean í have seen my 30 fold blessing in every area but sometimes i still am.. that's a bad point i admit. but today, i just felt really really comforted and encouraged when i heard pastor prince and how much the powerful weapons that i have will conquer it. and i'll just stand and watch my miracle come. i mean it's a really really good thing and really lor, jesus is good (: and i'm just thankful that whatever i'm trusting him for will come to pass. i'll receive everything i need from him and yea that's all. (:
and there's like more peace now esp after i took a nap in the afternoon. haha i really uds what pastor mark means when just resting and God wil reveal things and revelations to you. and there's peace (:
yay yay haha and i blog myself happy :D:D

2009-03-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

i'm beginning to see my 30 fold blessings in my life, in every single area. and i'm believing for that 100 fold (:
i'm sure it'll come
wanted to upload pictures of mr sim but my comp cant find my phone or my phone cant find my comp. any way it's not working :/
jogathon's tmr but i really dont feel like going. all i feel like doing now is to stay at home and sleep all i can
haha
and there's gb on sat :/ but there's dare :D
i dont mind gb but i dont like the idea that it's on a sat morning. i rather it be on a weekday, at least i get my weekends free

2009-02-21T09:24:00.002+08:00

went jogging early in the morning. ran from amk to seletar. yay! almost died can!! so far lahh!
but coz ying shi said that cardiac exercises helps to burn fats so oh well, listen to her lah
yea and jesus will take it away from me :D
supposed to be doing hw but oh well, here i am blogging so means that i'm not doing hw :x
i must must must start doing and studying ready! almost everyone chionging already..
okay i'll start next week HAHA!
i hope i really do.
for some reasons, i suddenly love my class alot alot more than last year. maybe coz it's the last year already so everyone is beggining to treasure our last year together before we goour seperate ways which is sad :(
i'm serious about having a jc just for my secondary school then we'll never have to leave our friends. so people that go straight to jc, treasure it man! lol
i'm eating an apple now and it keeps getting stuck on my braces..so irritating :/ :/
grrrr..
oh yea, tan bak seng was super cute this week lah. during chinese exam, he said ' all those higher chinese students go inside first' so i stood outside since i dropped my higher chinese.and then he came out after a while a said ' all those aaa LOWER chinese students go inside now."
and timothy and guoyan were all booing him. i was laughing so hard. i wish he taught me a subject or something. he's so funny! :D:D
the next funny funny one is gary tan. haha he's one super funny person. he's my pe teacher and the way he conducts his pe lesson is already so funny. and i asked him to help me write a letter to excuse me from piano lessons and he took like 5 weeks to write and when i got back to him, he asked me to write for him then he sign -.-
so i wrote on foolscap and he typed it out and gave it to me after 2 weeks
hah! and i was walking past his class this week and he was talking to his class like they were in primary school and he suddenly said hi to me and everyone in class looked out. wow was super embarrassing can!!
and my good friend, mr sim (s)
haizz...i reserve my comments. you must really know him and see how he behaves. super funny esp coz he's a chinese teacher and he already got that super cute look.. haha next time i upload picture and his jokes always got ' standard'.
and always talk rubbish lor
yesterday at chinese class he pointed to michelle and ask what rank she was holding on in npcc and she said staff seargeant and he was like, ' ni ke yi, ni jiu bu ke yi ' and he pointed at me and said ' ni shi he dang sian qi liang mu' i was lik -_-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol and the other mr sim is the super lame one

haha i'm beginning to realize that the teachers in school are all so cute and funny.. finally appreciating them after 4 years.. took abit long huh? but there are some that are totally detestable ..
yeap. okay i better go finish up my chinese compo and prepare to go to church already. seeya :D

2009-02-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

went to coach lily's house yesterday and made it just in time for sharing and was talking about spiritual gifts..yep okay thats kinda personal to me so i shall not say anything but i just wanna say that Jesus is good! i totally reaped my 30 fold harvest today :D
and alot more, really i want to be part of one-north, to be positioned there and study law. haha ambitious huh? but that's my faith goal. okay i think only the people really close to me will really understand that. teeheezzXD
after commontest i'm so gonna start my healthy lifestyle and trust that all the unwanted stuff will be supernaturally burnt away. (:
yea i'm waiting for jonathan to finish bathing. he's taking like forever. LOL LOL
yeap oh i really feel that God's working in my whole family, i mean we're really much closer now, every single one and i'm gonna to continue to believe that we will just be closer and closer and we'll have a blessed family life.(:

i cant wait for commontest to be over, aya i just know that i really have to start mugging already, i mean i'm really not in the mood but like i said, time and tide waits for no man. so i have to start doing something and not live in regret..
okay, i gtg now. goodnights (:

2009-02-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

just some random photos from cny. dad said that my blog's too plain. oh well, i hope some pictures will brighten it up.. but i stil prefer it plain and simple. LOL

2009-02-05T22:16:00.001+08:00

woohoo! mr toh said i got 70 ++ for chem retest but he cant exactly remember. :/
anw. accpomplishment! :D
last year mid year i got 28.5/80 and in end of years i got 54/100 and now 70 ++/100.
this is my 30 fold blessing only. more to come!
but i'm dropping chem anw, doesnt matter much now..but i just feel happy. this is like so so cool, praise God yeap
okay and everything today is school was like normal. nothing out of the ordinary just that i'm beggining to find school a little more interesting XD

2009-02-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

went to church yesterday. woke up way too late for tickets. anw, isaac john gave his to me. or rather i just kope from him. LOL
when i reached, matthew was alr gone, sherrie went for second so i went to macs to look for keegen and donatus. they were SO inconsiderate. imagine 2 people taking up 4 tables.. anw, late on isaac john came.
i seriously think his birthday is on the 31 december or something man! he's so lammmeeeee! haiyo had to argue with him like crazy but it was seriously alright. it wasnt the kind of arguing where i feel like smacking him but simply just the arguing for fun kinda thing.
yeap and i met jonathan at the queue and i just passed my ticket to him. i'm such a good sister right?!?!? i expect a yes! XD
yesterday was really fun! i mean in church is really peaceful and at home, feeling so accepted and stuff. (:
yeap and coz i talked till late yesterday night, (but not as late when i talk to michelle), i was so high can. i couldnt stop laughing at the things that i said and i couldnt get to sleep until 2 and i kinda overslept, forgot to wear my watch and bring my hp. i felt so crippled today at school. i kept looking at my wrist but my watch isnt there :/
and i was supposed to meet the LS for our study session today and it's at national library and it's like super big can!?! and i was like praying that i'll just meet someone i know so i wont get lost and i kinda decided to go there earlier so anyone that is going into the library will walk past me.
and when i walked in, i didnt see anyone and i started praying in my heart and i just continued walking and after a while, i was like ' hey that person looks familiar!'
and i walked closer to see if i was correct and it was david. wow that was an answered prayer man! so i didnt get lost after all. YAY!
speaking about studying effectively, i dont really think we are. we'll just try one more week(next week). yep!
but i really enjoy it coz like it's really your kingdom friends and stuff. yea and bridgette ps me today!!! :/ she didnt come :/:/

LOL i was supposed to be posting pictures about cny, but oh well, i'm too lazy to do it. it's on facebook anw.. so i dont think i will do it HAHA!
i have school tmr, like duh -.- and there's report test tmr
man! i really need to start studying.. i'm totally in that sian mood and i just dont feel like doing it.. but i have to what. time and tide waits for no man, sadly :(

2009-01-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

gb today was in full u. and anyway it's only fun coz of friends. been friends since senior team. my dearies are paulyn, sarah, chelsea, vivian, eunice and kuenkuen! sws!!
been through thick and thin and every other stuff..
yep but they are really fun man
wow man! i'm so in love with the song can i have this dance again. :D
my future husband so has to sing this song and dance with me to this song. it's really sweet leh! (: haha i remember during xiyan's wedding when zhiqiang and her sang you are the music in me. it was so romantic lah! imagine this song !
hahaha i'm not despo kay! i just like this song. hehehe XD
yep vanessa hudgens has a good voice, not many people have it.
anw, my brothers are like quarelling now so i'm gonna be a good sister and stop them and watch my 'xiao niang re'. even though i'm not really into it yet but i think that it's actually quite nice (:
bye people and happy 6th day of cny people !

2009-01-27T18:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
this chinese new year, like liyuan said is really like a bonding session for all the cousins and aunties and uncles. on sunday, had reunion dinner at uncle kim hwa's new house. it's freaking nice can!?! have a swimming pool somemore. and xuan wen, liyuan,weekee,sergin and me was like sitting around the small table and really just laughing and joking around while eating. haha will upload pics later
and i tried to teach them om jiji and they kinda played awhile and said it was too confusing -.-
i got it kay?!?! haha anyway then we played murderer(the one that you have to hold hands), the tapping hands game (criss-cross your hands with the person next to you), and the real murderer, xi niu nai and truth or dare. hahaha! it's really fun this year, but not really in the cny mood. cny mood (to me) = lookign forward to cny
anw, it was fun and i reached home at 11.50 and and slept soon after until 10.15. then mummy came barging in and waking me and jonathan up..
then went to mama and ah gong's house (grandma and grandpa). claire and faith were already there. and i so totally love claire's cheongsam. i'm so gonna get one next year! it's a must
and then went to da bo's house. we were the first leh! even though we were already so late! yay! and then walked around awhile and the others came. we really slacked around for very very very very long before leaving for the next house. hehe and xuan wen and liyuan sat our car and we were watching 'xiao niang re' and they said they felt dizzy after that -.-
after that we went on and i was in their car this time. and me and liyuan were like 'the next house is very crammed and very hot' and liyuan said this ! "i have wet wipes and oil blotter' and me and xuan wen looked at her and 'you're so tai-tai leh'
and then we tried to describe to xuan wen the next house we would be visiting and it was super duper hilarious! :D
at the next house, we totally got so many angpaos and we tried to look at the solar eclipse haha and after a while, me and liyuan thought we saw it and we were like 'there there! the sun kenna block already!' and the rest were like 'no! it's just the clouds! must be you stare too long at the sun and your eye spoil already so it looks like it's getting darker!' *laughing*
LOL LOL :D:D
it was so funny!!
butwe didnt have time for the last one, aunty peggy's house.
anw, we went to su li's house and we played the game high school musical. haha and everything liyuan drew required her to dance. spontaneous i must say! haha and then it was my turn so the person on my left, liyuan had to pick a card for me and it says "with the person on your left, do a tango." and liyuan gave that diao look. we did it anw
and the next round, she picked again and it says "with the person on your left, do a disco dance" hahaha and we were all laughing so hard.
she had to dance with me and she wont get rewarded for it
HAHAH!
later on, all the cousins, uncles and aunties played bingo together.
bonding ehh! hahaha
and we i learnt mahjong man!
and the cousins played all the way till 4.45 and then we all went back..

and today, went to gu ma's house. and got alot alot alot of angbaos XD
and then went to isaac kang's house. met bridgitte and david first and they were both late! -.- i felt so accomplised. i was like near vjc but i still reached earlier than them. what is this?!?!
and we got on the bus and missed the stop and had to walk back -_-!!
but it was okay lah.. i was so sleepy i just fell asleep on the couch when the guys were out..
this is a really really long post. haha next is pics XD XD

2009-01-25T14:18:00.006+08:00

today's cny eve(:
not really in the chinese new year mood this year. haha just doesnt seem like it's coming up
anws, had service at indoor stadium yesteday. was kinda busy. had chinese remedial yesterday but mr sim was talking rubbish most of the time. he was like "telling our fortune" but touching our hands and looking at our faces. he can be really nice at times but when he scolds and decides your future for you, it really sucks man!
yea then had to wait one hour for ss test. what's the point!? i fell asleep for about half an hour..
ss test was okay lah. hope i got all the main points and answered in correctly, paragraphings and stuff
yea then had to stay back awhile more and then rushed home to bathe and change and rushed to indoor stadium. leisure park to be exact

i was so late that i met radical.. infact i was later than them. and when i reached, ls already finished eating but not many people were there.. yeap i thought i was super duper late and actually i was, but the main point is, there were people later than me. okayy i know this is like frigging lame. LOL
anyway, service was alright and for the song 'for all you've done', everyone around me was jumping and the whole platform was shaking and i turned to valerie and we just smiled and giggled. HAHA felt like earthquake.
haha reminds me of singapore poly's 'opening house' *giggles* okay i'm sorry :/ <<<
they had this tremor-lator and me and michelle went up and i was like "can we have magnitude 2?' coz we were really scared and it started shaking and we were laughing at each other.
we thought that it would shake more and more violently and then the guy just said 'okay you can come down now'
me and michelle were like HUH?!?! this is it? -_-!!
but we were still laughing like crazy after we came down
this is so lame lar. teeheezz(:
kay i gtg for reunion dinner now. seeya and happy chinese new year!

2009-01-20T20:43:00.002+08:00

boohoo! a math test tmr! :/
haha taking a break now..hehe i studied for a while already.
pe today was umm..not exactly fun
stil trusting for that miracle. amen (:
haha anw, i dont know why but recently i've been like super high, like in history remedial class yesterday. just so happy from within
teeheezz and i could solve most of the question at math lesson !! hoho!! yay
and wendy tang called me up and i was like ....... why me?!?!?! i dont know how!! but anw i had no choice but to go up and solve and correct leh! haha praise God
and what else, oh the show reunion dinner yesterday was super hilarious! it really was
i want to go to israel but mum says no coz too near my o's. gonna trust You that i'll go! amen amen
yeap and shua just told mummy that he wants to go to korea in december. haha second time, it's gonna be fun ! (that is if i go. hahaha)
but seriously, this year is a year of favor man! like all my miracles WILL come to pass and everything else. they will just fall so perfectly together (:
havent dont cny shopping :/ jon said he wants to go with me.. wow first time seh that my brother wants to go shopping with me and hopefully this time i dont pay! hahaha
okay i got ls online meeting and i have to continue studying for my a math test tmr
seeya :D:D

2009-01-16T21:04:00.001+08:00

YAY!! retests are finally over. the rest is in God's hands. yep
i'm so freaking tired today and there's still cca tmr.. :/:/:/
go go in jesus name!! amen amen
haha okay
well.. i just named my pet wrongly in facebook. i wanted to name her scooge but ended up naming her scooger.. man!!
anw, i realized i got nothing to blog about! lol
í'm so gonna enjoy this weekend as much as i can.! (:
cny's coming. this year will be expecting abundance. yay amen
though ppl are affected by the economy, but we will be set apart and untouched and we'll gain even more from it(: amen
yep okay i'm gonna watch tv now :D

2009-01-13T19:23:00.002+08:00

i'm no longer a higher mother tongue student :/ sad lah duh..took hcl since p5 but firstly, i still believe that God has a better plan for me. secondly, it might be a blessing in disguise and thirdly it will really build me up and fourthly, it will work out well for the plan he has.
thinking of dropping to combined science and focus also. would be easier to score an a1. and mummy and coach lily said that it's better to get an a1 then 2 b3s or 4s..
yep so i think i'll just do that. of course i feel really sad coz i really like combi c alot and has been my dream since sec1 and hcl is really the last lap already. this is the 6th year and i wont have to take chinese in jc anymore.. now i;ll have to focus on my cca. must get that 2 points..
really lah, yesterday was crazily bad..like really.
those that went out with me should know how i reacted but i must still say that God is good, giving me so many close friends like michelle, alicia, cheryl, shuqing, mal, gh, bridgette, kezia, amanda, meishi, matthew and david who really really cheered me up yesterday.
yeap good friends are hard to find and kingdom friends are even harder to find!
i'll still study for my retest and leave the rest to God. i mean, if really have to drop, i'll just accept it graciously and really watch how the results are coming..

2009-01-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

o level chinese results tmr!! trusting for an a1. and chem retest is this wed..
sed 4 can be hectic man. but it'll all be over real soon.
service today was good. i'm trusting that whatver i dont want will go!!
yep..
it's kinda late now and i know this post is super super random and short but at least my blog's not so dead.
heheeee
okay goodnight

2009-01-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

i still prefer my previous blogskin but bandwidth exceeded! :/:/:/
haha i like chinese lesson man! even though the mr sim always talk rubbish about me and michelle but we both dont put our faith and hope in mr sim's words..
just reject it in jesus name! haha(:
yea..
haha i was leaning on my table and writing stuffs on my post-it and michelle was also doing the same..and my sim was saying in chinese that we wont get any break-throughs this year and michelle just turned away from him and said 'i reject it in jesus name' and we both said amen..haha !
but i didnt realize that mr sim was talking about us until like 3 seconds later so i sat up and just stared and mr sim..and know what, his button came out and he was just talking about girls' dressing. haha and we were like should we say and stuff
and in the end vanessa told him..actually mr sim is not bad, quite funny but idiotic when he starts 'prophesying' our future when it's not in his hands!yep
but amen to having days like heaven upon the earth (:
so far this week has been good
oh and i forgot to bring janice lim's file and thank God she didnt ask for it..she was so engrossed in talking about her vietnam trip. so means we didnt have our history lessons :D

2009-01-03T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !
haha i know that this is super duper late, but again this is going to be radzon and dektos year!
2009 is going to be a great and blessed year, a year of breakthroughs for me. anw, dare was super fun as usual and everything is really blessed. pre-service was really fun!!
i said delight and the ans was delightful! haha i have the mind of Christ, can rmb stuffs(: (:amen amen! and it shall be for the rest of the year:D:D
haha okay my L1R5 was 30 and this year is going to be victorious. i'm writing this year so that everyone will see my testimony when o's results are out.(:
end of this year, i want to see myself saying all of him and none of me! it will come to pass(:
last time i'm blogging before i take a 40 day and 40 nights break from playing and blogging and all the uneccessary stuffs. haha i have the power over it in jesus(:
gotta chiong homework, all the holiday homework and heymath just deleted the test that i havent done.. :S
anw, jesus's blood will cover me.
hey! i saw michelle on the train today. so coincidental lah! and we didnt see each other until we reached braddell. this is really right place, right time. HAHA! :D
okay i gtg go summarize the ss textbook..:/ dont get the whole point of doing it..like that, must as well we summarize and self study everything then all the teachers will go out of job..haha

2008-12-29T21:38:00.002+08:00

past 2 days has been awesome! had meeting in the morning and i really see God's hands working in my life and everything. He really answered my prayers and gave me more than what i asked for. amen!
and service was simply awesome!! amen amen!!!!
haha and bs rocks. i'm gonna take coach lily's vision of God's provision for my breakthrough as my pillar of strength and he's just confirming it again and again in my life. woohoo:D
anw, went to enjo's house today and the meeting was very very fruitful and really !
yep and i will receive breakthroughs in 2009. amen!:D

2008-12-27T17:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!
woohoo! this is my 100th post..maybe it's very very little compared to others. haha anw, yesterday's dg outing was super uper duper fun!!
planned to leave house at 10.30 coz i have bad estimation and would give me allowance so that i wont be late but i was 1 min late.haha got improvement leh!
met sarah, joyce, amanda, belda, geraldine, edene, justin, matthew, keng siang, moses, noah and took a bus to parkway..
met coach mel, kiamin and keegen,joey and cheryl there. ate at foodcourt yep and we took a bus to somewhere near big splash and walked to marine cove. (:
anw, only justin, noah, joey, coach mel and me did skating and i fell dont know how many times :x
noah was the best man! his falls were super dramatic(in a good way)
they always say that you must fall and then you wont be afraid to try yep so noah really fell.. haha and i was silly enough to not take knee guards and wrist guards but took elbow guards which didnt help me at all..
this is the first time i fell so many times in a day..haha but it was fun lah(:
the rest took bikes..
after skating, borrowed matthew, geraldine and edene's bike to try..it's so relaxing compared to skates! cycling felt heavenly man:D
played captain's ball after that. the guys wanted soccer but none of the girls wanted so we settled for catain's ball. it was funn man!
but we so totally gave away the first ball, we were just running around and when joey caught the ball, everyone in our team was like 'huh? so fast ah?!'
haha then matthew went to block joey and got hurt..
and the guys were like sweating like crazy coz when i was trying to snatch the ball, my hand just slided off! haha just imagine
yep then we took a break which ended up really a break coz later on coach talked to us..but before that, keegen was helping matthew to massage his muscles somewhere near the thighs and from my angle, it was errr...
haha then sherrie came and we walked back to parkway soon after.
i was talking to sherrie most of the trip back and the rest of the guys were like singing at the back..haha it was err.."nice". yep that's the word
haha we walked around like for dont know how long and the rest were like looking for the directory but i walked into a shop to ask. yay! and i found ajisen given my bad sense of direction
and dinner was super hilarious.. i was sitting with amanda and sherrie and kiamin was opp me and edene was opp sherrie and we were just talking rubbish but it was damn funny!!!
oh and i heard stuffs concerning my ___ and i can only say that i am very very shock..:x couldnt believe my ears at first coz the impression he gave me was good but after hearing, omg...........................
okay anw, when we came out, i realized that i didnt take my ez-link from the shop. and justin's ez-link and coach mel's driving licence so me and justin went ahead first and justin decided to run -_-!!
okay so he ran ahead and it was dark enough and he was wearing black and i couldnt see him at all.. keng siang and keegen came shortly after and the rest were at the underpass..thanks for waiting (:
took a bus to toa payoh and took a train with edene, sherrie and kiamin and it was only then that i realized that keng siang and keegen didnt get onto the bus..man! i was so WOLS :x
it was like 1 hr ago..
was super tired when i came home and online awhile and just fell straight to sleep..went to the doctor's this morning coz of my bad cough and phlegm and stuff and went back to sleep in the afternoon. woke up and did abit of geog hw and i was so restless already..
i really need to finish my homework and get into the study mood already..
there's service tmr ! yay!
Daddy help me in all my tests!!

2008-12-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

radical outing was super uper duper fun! went skating and cycling but i tried skating.. and i was super tired, fell dont know how many times, embarassed myself and stuff..
it was okay lah..i planned to leave house early but ended up being 1 min late. haha improvement everytime!
i'm too tired to blog...maybe i'll continue tmr.
and i'm coughing like crazy. what is this!?!?
but seriously today was fun and tome really flies when you're having fun:D
blog the rest tmr (:

2008-12-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRITMAS! :D
merry christmas everyone! just came back not to long ago..
anw, radical outing tmr. it's gonna be so fun(:
school's reopening soon. i havent been doing hw and studying but i must say that this holiday is still the most fruitful esp spending most of it in church and in the presence of jesus(:
yep i think it really helped me to grow and experience everything so differently and gives me more assurance to say that i am HIS and i wil reign above whatever the world throws at me coz as he is, so am i!
yep..i'm going off now..not in the blogging mood today. maybe tmr

2008-12-24T16:39:00.002+08:00

oh i forgot to blog this yesterday. watched twilight with sws. when i went there, i thought that i wouldnt appreciate the show coz it's so about love story and i like comedies! and when it started i didnt even know. i was asking vivian "why the advertisment so long?" then she said "start already what" and i was like "huh really meh?!"
wow and i thought that i wouldnt love it abit since i didnt read the book. the start was a litle boring but near the middle it was so nice. i mean it's good having this kinda boyfriend right? 24/7 taking care of you and will protect you to his death. and rich somemore.. haha actually everything about him is good except the fact that he is a vampire:/ spoils the whole thing..
but overall, i thought that the show was nice(:
it's christmas tmr but i dont feel in the christmas mood yet..used to have carolings on christmas eve then you feel so in the mood for christmas, but there's nothing this year..:/
i wish there was christmas service tmr but they dont have..haha looking forward to friday and i'll try my best to wake up on time!

2008-12-23T19:44:00.002+08:00

was supposed to get a new phone today and use mummy's plan to upgrade but checked every singtel shop in amk hub, none carries the grey one, only have the red and white one and blue one but paulyn has the red one already..so i want the grey one..stupid lehh!! why cant sony ericsson just launch all at the same time!?
so i have to wait till next yr..:/
school's starting like next week..crap!

2008-12-22T18:33:00.003+08:00

I MISS EJ!

2008-12-22T18:19:00.003+08:00

supposed to be studying today but somehow i'm still not in the study mood. i've been trying since tuition ended but i was either sleeping, using the comp or writing notes..
i'm going to study tonight! so much homework..i've got to start somewhere.
this chorus of ' we were the reason' keeps playing in my mind and i think the lyrics of this song is just awesome!

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that he suffered and died
To a world that was lost he gave all he could give,
to show us the reason to live

dg outing on friday to marine cove. it's gonna be so fun lah! haha cant wait (:
i'm gonna try to study when mummy comes home.. i can study better at night.

this 3 things are gonna to come to pass, i'm sure!:D

dare on sat was so funnn! i wish we could go back in time and relive it one more time.

2008-12-21T17:39:00.003+08:00

had christmas bash yesterday and it was fun. the praise and worship just that there was so many people that it was so hard to run and after the second round, me and meishi just decided that we shoudnt run anymore. haha but doing a comparision, dare was the 'highest' among all lah and then arrow and then genrev. yea and the puppets thing was abit ridiculous. like we met at 11 and cut cut cut until like 2+ then tie strings and stuff and i didnt even wear for 1 min! -_-! but i think it's the fellowship before that matters(:
did radicals presents until 5.30 and i woke up at 7.15. felt so tired at first but it wasnt so bad during service and after service i felt like super awake. haha double portion of strength:D
combined christmas service today. was fun and pastor prince made us visualize stuff in year 2009 and yea it's gonna be a great great year with manifested blessings :D i felt the wind so many many times like 3-4 times and i'm so sure that His presence(: and i really felt His assurance that he loves me and it's a great year ahead:D
went for lunch later and wanted to go to novena but the didnt want. and that place was like super crowded. haha that's why they say that behind every successful man is a successful woman so makes sense that we listen to girls right?! haha okay and we just sat at some open space and ate and discussed dg outing. haha then joyce said she wanted to bring hotdog and i think keegen said he wanted to bring bread and i was like i bring chilli! and amanda was like 'i bring plate!' then we went to tell the guys and matthew said that he wanted to bring cups and amanda was like 'no need, no need! we can share from the bottle' it was super hilarious lah
after that amdnda, amabel and joyce left and so only noah and his brother, keegen, matthew, jordan, keng siang , me and geraldine left. and there's just something about them, they walk super fast partly coz they have longer legs..lol
anyway, matthew and noah kinda bashed through dont know where and we walked to kallang mrt. woww it was kinda far man!
me and geraldine were like complaining at certain parts of the whole journey..
okay i dont know why but i feel really really tired now:/
yep so i'm going to sleep(:
oh i hope radicals liked the present coz i thought it was nice LOL!
haha okay lah, some wasnt that nice coz i really kinda chionged in the morning..

2008-12-19T19:16:00.002+08:00

back from yf camp! i still miss and like ej!:D
it's so so so so so so so so so fun
but this camp made me quite upset at times. i mean everything's just so different. i dont feel so at home anymore and people just question and ask and warn.. i know they're concerned and stuff but i mean, i've already made up my mind.. and i'm very very very thankful for good church friends that called me when i left them a miss call. (:
i felt like crap that day and they really cheered me up.
and they really talked to me through the whole thing. :D
yep and i cant wait for tomorrow and tomorrow's tomorrow and maybe tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow. i'm kinda lame here LOL
okay nothing much to blog about actually. i'm so so hungry. parents are going out today and jon is going for bbq which leaves me and my grandparents and they're not buying food yet and i'm so hubgry. i wish a hamburger just falls from the sky now and appears right infront of me and fries with lots and lots of curry and sweet&sour sauce. =P
okay i gtg now. going to be busy tonight i guess? haha

2008-12-13T13:15:00.004+08:00

i'm back and i just hibernated for 18 hours:D peaceful man!
holiday was funnn! but thank God for the last night :D
went to genting and the first day did nothing much. sat in coffee bean and felt the christmas atmosphere. second day chionged theme park until was abit bored. haha this time, only the older kids went. chionged till night! almost all the games there except the space shot coz i still dont dare to sit. :(
it's scary man! haha. the next day we went to KL then service apartment and shua picked the huge master bedroom. Favor yea? haha
then we just played around and shopped for the next few days. the last night was abit sad but i still thank Daddy for it. i mean, He turned the whole thing around.(: and He returned double. the peace and happiness the devil took away, Daddy returned double and we enjoyed the last day and the all the pillow talks.
then before we came back, went to the theme park in KL. the first ride you see when you walk in is hilarious man! the one sitting inside will fly outwards and lean to the person outside. haha! should play if you have the chance and see the look on everybody's face:D
and camp was AWESOME! felt the peace, anointing and walking out different, knowing that i'm chosen, accepted and in for extraordinary things!
the friends were great!!
the feeling is just wonderful and i wish it was longer. shall not go into details but overall, i just felt peace and anointed. Jesus is great! all the anointings and stuff. yep, it was indeed perfect(:
haha okay. and my legs are all tired from all the jumping and it's jumping for good cause:D
the games were fun man! really played like crazy and taunt the whole night. okay not the whole but almost. i fell asleep at 6 and woke up at 7.30++.
lunched and came home to hibernate.

2008-12-04T01:45:00.001+08:00

yay! my holidays have finally started. at least for the next 9 days. going to malaysia with childhood friends again! they are damn fun to be with. haha i literally grew up with them. following is EJ camp. omgosh, i cant wait!:D:D
will blog when i'm back, but in the meantime, no tuition and homeworks and stuff. woohoo!! :D:D
seeya soon

2008-12-01T12:59:00.002+08:00

i am so so frustrated with all the tuition! just cause i'm gg for 2 camps and they are gg for their own holidays, they are chionging everything. WTH! just take it easy.. i will study once i had my break, but sad to say, i havent really started!! :(
this is FRUSTRATING! :/ :/
i seriously cant wait for thursday, it's gonna be a 9 days break! :D

2008-11-25T22:16:00.002+08:00

i'm sooo addicted to facebook's real estate tycoon! haha although i think that it's the most matured game, but i like it. better than the pet game. haha! thanks matthew btw.
and i've been trying to sign up for a neopets account since afternoon. i couldnt sign up so since my brother's still not home, i'm using his comp to sign up. teeheez :D but msn is super slow..it's lagging! but when i finally do, Sherrie's going to play with me! haha :D thanks Sherrie for intro-ing this game.
hoho this is like some testimonial post, but it's not! hah! it's just pure coincidence.

ahh, go in Jesus name!

oh and joey, have fun! i wish i was the one going to europe :/
there are just so many things that i'm thankful for. thanks Daddy (:

salvation, favor, victory as i stand and see!

i can't wait for camp, seriously
there's flag day tmr :/ :/ and have to report at 7! it's the same time as school!!!! D:
but still, i'm going to sleep late. i think i'll sleep at singout tomorrow.. LOL but of course not at the part when our school's performing so giang hwee, jiayou!
okay that's all for now

2008-11-24T21:13:00.003+08:00

yay! went to chinatown and vivo with michelle today. she wanted to buy souveniors for her hosts in malaysia so i followed her and we went to eat yum cha.!! was nice and we ended up super full and we were like dying of fullness. haha if we really did died i think we would be the first few people to die because we were too full in singapore.
lol. anw we went to vivo for a while and just walked and spent our time talking rubbish. when i make my first million, i'm gonna have to buy alot alot of things for my cousins and friends as promised. LOL
oh church yesterday was wonderful! a miraculous sign happened and those that were there would know. i love it man! haha.
seriously, the last week was tiring. and super sian kinda of thing. like there isnt much life and trying hard to find that liveliness kind of thing? yea and seriously, yesterday i was super super refreshed! omg Jesus really showed himself. i saw the picture moved and jesus was confirming his word again and again and i felt so loved by Him. and i felt the wind. pastor prince was like 'is it my eyes playing tricks on me or is the picture blinking?' and i looked up and meishi grabbed my hand and i saw it blink.! i was like so excited and i started grabbing meishi's hand again. and i felt the wind twice. it was amazing! You touched my heart again and again. i felt so refreshed! it's an answered prayer.(: and i was just telling sherrie on sat night that i feel like i'm drying out and this really came super timely.!

2008-11-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

hoho! DG was fun today. but it's the last DG of the year. sad sad :(

all my cousins are crazily smart! all the RGS and RI pros. lol! and the highest for L1R5 is 10! 10 leh!! i'm so going to make it man! haha:D
i've got 3 cousins that took psle this year and let's review their results. cousin 1 got 250, cousin 2 got 252 and cousin 3 got 270 with 4 A* and a distinction. those are MY cousins seh! it just runs in the genes man! all of them are just freaking smart. they are smart. haha so my goal is at least a 10 for L1R5.

must keep the standard leh. haha but there's no one competing with me in o levels coz two in rgs and 1 in ri. what is this?!?!

LOL. okay i've got a church wedding to attend at 10.45am today. haha so i better go and sleep soon. waiting for a video to load and i'll watch and off i go to sleep.haha

2008-11-20T12:43:00.004+08:00

i'm trusting You that whatever i dont want will go!

2008-11-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

went to zoo today with vivian, chelsea, kuenkuen, paulyn and chris!:D was very tiring but very fun! i dare to say we walked the whole zoo and the kids corner was just amazingly nice! too bad didnt bring a change of clothes so couldnt go in :/ but we played the other games with little kids. hah we like no childhood like that but seriously we have kayyy..it's just to relive those moments. LOL
but it was great! and i rained halfway. boohoo:( vivian and chris ran in the rain while me and kuen kuen shared an umbrella and paulyn and chelsea shared another. haha i finally can open kuenkue'n's hello kitty umbrella. that umbrella just doesnt like me. i tried since we went for the recce trip at little india and same thing, couldnt open. tried a few times today and i finally did haha!
and there were this 2 komodo dragon, one big and the other small and the big one was subduing the smaller one to mark it's territory and the stupid cold-blooded animal just did not want to let the smaller animal go:/ idiotic leh and poor thing lah..
but we left anyway coz it was so boring.
and there were just so many happy and funny stuff that happened today and i cant name them all:/ but i really did enjoy myself. oh and thanks Vivian or organizing the whole event!(: really really appreciated it:D
oh and me and kuen kuen went for the fish foot massage.haha it was damn funny. we said that kuen kuen is 12 years old so she got it cheaper and we split the cost. thanks Kuen! and it was damn ticklish at first but after we got used to it, it was super comfortable and there was this group of tourist form japan that seemed so shock with this type of massage. haha they were like pointing and taking photo. thank God there was this poster thing that streched across the whole window so nobody could see us but they were taking pictures of our legs. haha so funny lah, their reaction!
the zoo is nice leh seriously. i'm so proud of singapore man! haha and the night safari is better! LOL
okay got to do my tuition hw now coz i have tuition tmr :S

2008-11-18T15:12:00.004+08:00

hoo! went shopping with mum just now. she took leave (:
i really enjoyed it. like who doesnt. lOl! lOl!
i've got piano lessons later which i really dont feel like going but i'll have to go otherwise there'll either be make up lesson or no make up lesson at all and i dont like both. when there's make up lesson i feel super bored because of it but when there's no make up lesson i'll feel very cheated of my money. okay i know i;m being lame here but it's really true. that's how i feel.
yay! zoo tmr but i'll feel even happier if we're going to the night safari but zoo's nice too! but singapore really has very limited animals and it's always the same few but ah meng is no longer there, that's for sure! but aiya there are others. i'm so going to see the white tigers! wonder did they block them out but the person who tried to commit suicide really must choose such a painful way to die meh? it's like something piercing into your body and ripping your flesh apart. yuck :(
such a painful way. i guess if i were him i would just insert air bubbles into my blood stream like what samantha said. Lol. at least i wont know anything, i'll just faint and the end.
okay i better end here and prepare for my lessons. :/ will blog about the zoo. hah!
till then..